Deprogramming
Introduction; The Basic
Considerations When Deprogramming; Coping With and Undoing the Programming; Opposite
to Programming; Loose Stages of Deprogramming; Deprogramming for Different
Situations; Deprogramming In Relation to Different Aspects; Views and Webpages
on Deprogramming; Summary
Introduction
Deprogramming essentially is
stopping what the perpetrators demand. These commands are to: “do the tasks;
maintain the programming; not contact support; and only contact perpetrators.
If these do not happen you must suicide”. Also as the programming is
deliberately not conscious, “one should not remember anything about the
programming, the deployment, the accessing and the organisations’ activities.
Otherwise, you must suicide”. The demands are not couched in these words. The
perpetrators pretend to be “nice and supportive”; and you “can ring us, we are
counsellors”, but these are lies.
So to deprogram can mean stopping
doing the tasks; dismantle the programming; get support such as a counsellor or
read information about recovery, stop contacting perpetrators, remembering what
the organization and its activities are about, and stopping suicide. These may
seem easy on paper, but if one is challenging programming, we are remembering
horrific things, and stopping horrendous feelings and urges to suicide. The
ways of torturing us with intense physical, psychological, sexual and emotional
pain, and with deep moral issues means we have to be strong. We need to have
tough minds and hearts, an awareness of what the programming constitutes so
that it is known and therefore can be pulled apart; and to seek support
especially with counsellors and fellow survivors who are dealing with and/or
have dealt with programming.
Deprogramming does not happen
overnight. It took me nearly fifteen years to get to the point where I can
write about deprogramming from AGOCMP. Deprogramming is also not linear.
Sometimes you can be stuck for a month working on a program, and other days it
is easy to undo them. There are also no tricks or easy ways. Do not use the
code names, or any other perpetrator language, to undo it, as the personalities
understandably think that you, or the person saying them, are perpetrators.
There are very few counsellors
anywhere who know how to deprogram specifically. There is also no course or
conference etc that has ever educated particularly about deprogramming. The
reasons for this are that not many people have written down what the process
constitutes. People, especially survivors and counsellors, know what the
process entails, but are more inclined to get on with it, rather than write it
down. I’m writing it down because I don’t want people to feel alone with it. I
also think it’s important to not see programming as complicated, technical,
"over there", “too difficult” etc, and, instead, to simplify it. It
is basically a method of control where you have been tortured and tricked into
submission. Every child and adult, AGOCMP survivor or not, is programmed to be
"a good member of society" and uphold exploitative private enterprise
capitalism; and trauma and trickery are abused in that process too. The nightly
news is intended to horrify people and make people feel “gratitude that our
companies, government and nation look after us”. With AGOCMP, what is different
is that the torture and trickery are extreme, is particularly personal, and
abuses dissociation and the development of multiple personalities. At our core
we are tortured so much that a personality is deliberately formed and this
fundamental personality is tricked into loyalty and submission. This
personality is also deliberately non conscious to us. Therefore a handler
controls us by controlling a separated, yet fundamentally set personality, who
is deliberately not conscious to us. Therefore to deprogram means to be aware
of this personality or group of personalities, and stop the loyalty to an
outside perpetrator.
A workable definition of ‘being
deprogrammed’ is ‘not being deployed, accessed or abused in any way; and
restoring oneself to a natural state, or a state which is not harmful to
oneself or another’.
It is also important to explain
that there is no one specific way, or even many specific ways, to deprogram.
People work out what’s best for them. There are many ways that are common to survivors
and these have been described here.
There are also no specific stages. Deprogramming is about alleviating or
taking away the programming depending upon what your immediate and long term
needs and wants are. The emphasis is upon developing strategies to deal with
the situation. For example, when a victim/survivor feels that s/he maybe
accessed, it is important to be conscious of what the victim/survivor is going
to do in the time when the accessing is thought to happen. If stress will
happen because there will be no contact, it is important therefore to deal with
the stress. The stress in itself is a good indicator that accessing or
deployment may happen. If looking at deprogramming the whole thing, it is
important to look at the whole programming “system”, and how far into the whole
deprogramming you have come. See what is needed further to be undone. The
current and long term needs will be the guide to what, when and how you
deprogram.
Basic Considerations of
Deprogramming
There are very important basic
considerations in deprogramming. It is beneficial to have these either before
one starts and/or during the process. I’m writing ‘one’ or ‘you’ as it’s easier
than writing ‘the survivor/victim’ all the time. If this is triggering, copy
and paste the information and replace ‘one’ or ‘you’ with ‘you’ or any other
way that suits you. Also remember that you don’t need to be perfect. You can
have as many goes as you want in order to practice these. Make deprogramming on
*your* time schedule, not theirs.
An Unaffected, Free Space
Firstly, one needs an unaffected
personal space in one's mind. One needs to be in a personal space that is
relatively free from the organization's affects. This is to see the world from
a relatively untouched view or stance. This is important firstly for a
reference point. Generally, and in times of stress, one needs to have somewhere
to come back to that is theirs. This is a safe space inside oneself; similar to
what you experience being in a safe space such as a counsellor’s office where
one can be oneself. Imagine a place that is lovely and nurturing where you have
been before. That is not organization affected. You may want to draw or paint
it. You may find it in a place in your home, in your garden or somewhere you
feel safe. The space is also important for rationality. From this space you can
question programming to see if it makes sense, is rational, is nurturing, etc.
Programming is not sensible, rational or nurturing. It is about the abuse of
you and other victims. The space also has some sense of objectivity to look
clearly at whether something wrong is happening. If you are ever in trouble
with deprogramming, such as going around in circles, going nowhere, being
repeated, or there is a "snag", etc, you can come back to this unaffected
space. The most important thing is that you can separate yourself from the
organization. You will be able to relate outside an organization context and
mind set. You can relate to other survivors, friends, therapist, and the world
generally, etc. It can also be your end point so when you unravel the
programming there should only be this unaffected place.
We all have the ability to find and
have this free space. The human spirit is indestructible. For example, people
who have been in concentration camps for many years have come out with their
lives and thinking intact. If in doubt that you have this free space, try the
following exercises. A good exercise is to do something of your own free will
which the organisation has stopped you from before. This could be surfing the
net on AGOMCP, talking to your counsellor about AGOMCP, staying inside on a day
you think you maybe accessed so that you don’t ring from a public phone, etc.
Other ways of finding this inner peaceful place in your soul and mind are: a
bath, going for a walk, meditation, painting, and holding onto something from a
teddy bear to a rock, etc. Do things in your current age e.g. study, work,
hobbies, etc. From this beginning, you can then strengthen this safe space
simply by doing more of it and being creative. By simply reading this you, are
breaking organization rules to “not know about AGOMCP”.
Being
In Your Current Age
It is really important to be in
your current age. The trauma is really now a memory of an earlier time and age.
The importance also of being in your current age is that you can use your
current age’s abilities, knowledge and power this age has. Most of the
underlying trauma happened as a child when we didn’t have fully developed
intellectual and physical abilities. We couldn’t see the trickery clearly, and
we weren’t strong enough to run or physically stop the perpetrators. Most importantly we didn’t have the power to
escape. We were forced to be tied to perpetrators in the family basically
because we were children with little rights, were not believed, could not run
away and look after ourselves, etc. Now in our current age, whether it be 17 or
60, we do have more developed abilities and knowledge, and have rights and can
get support outside of the perpetrators within the family. I’ve found being in
my current age is the best way to cope with programming. The memories and
commands simply don’t exist as it is past and in personalities who don’t have
to be out. It’s like instant relief.
Consciousness
A major aspect of deprogramming is
consciousness. Every victim/survivor and counsellor continually stresses the
importance of consciousness. Consciousness is being aware of the abuse, of the
programming and its different aspects, specific personalities and the roles and
tasks, etc. Consciousness means looking for, and getting, the truth. Consciousness also means having knowledge of
what the programming constitutes, and the ability to act on this knowledge. To
obtain consciousness at any given moment is to be like in meditation and be
mindful of what is around and inside you right now. To find it, simply close
your eyes or concentrate on something so that you feel like you’re in the
present. What will also happen is that personalities within you will want to
speak or clamour or hide, etc. and so continue to go past this in order to
obtain that unaffected space. Awareness of personalities is important, but for
the moment aim for a quiet mind as much as possible. The term coconsciousness is consciousness
between parts, and with the parts and yourself. Consciousness is also the exact
reversal of what the perpetrators want i.e. no consciousness or not knowing
about the programming and abuse. Consciousness is a slap in the face for
perpetrators. With each conscious awareness we see the truth, and which, in
turn, opens up more truths. Wanting consciousness also fulfils the deeper wants
of self understanding and an independent and clear mind. This means freedom
from the perpetrators. Getting consciousness happens with getting memory, by
dialoguing with parts, by getting feedback from friends, therapist, etc and by
using rationality and intuition.
Knowing Yourself
Another aspect that
victims/survivors see as very important is knowing yourself. Even though this
might seem difficult at the beginning of deprogramming, there must be some
sense of knowing yourself in order to be able to even look at whether you are
being abused or not. For example, in order to come to this webpage and look for
information about Australian government mind control, there must have been some
knowledge of yourself. As survivorship progresses, you come to know yourself
more and have more confidence.
Knowing yourself means
understanding that you didn’t want to be part of their evil. This also means
understanding what is good or bad. If you wanted to do harm or do harm today,
you wouldn’t be looking up information on Australian government mind
control. Knowing yourself also means
trusting aspects of yourself such as your intelligence, your rationality, your
intuition, etc. It means knowing psychologically who you are in terms of having
many personalities, of switching between them, of being to do talk with them,
in knowing that personalities are also you, etc. In knowing and accepting
yourself, you can see what is programming. You can see how inner people have
been tortured, lied, tricked and coerced into doing things that, if they had
the choice today, would not have done before. Knowledge of yourself therefore
also means caring for yourself.
Coping With Trauma
Deprogramming is also basically
coping with traumatic memory. Programming has its “power” from the trauma you
were subjected to. This is what basically you are reacting to. The lies and
tricks of the perpetrators rest on “saving” you somehow from the trauma or from
another perpetrator. Coping with trauma needs an awareness that it happened
before and, most often, many years ago. It is not happening now. To stop or
ease programming needs this awareness and sometimes we need to work hard at
keeping this awareness. Use things that keep you in the present such as looking
at what’s going on around you, having a bath, going for a walk, etc. Things
that keep you grounded and in this day and time. Deprogramming like this is
sitting through the pain of the memory and waiting for it to go.
Seeing the Whole Picture.
An important phrase with multiple
personality survivors is “When I see that I am multiple, then I am one”. In
other words, you have gone further than being in one personality and seeing
from his/her angle. You can see the whole lot of the personalities and
therefore see much of the whole person. It is very important to see a lot of
yourself. For multiple personality survivors, if you are in one personality or
swapping between personalities then you can lose track of the whole picture.
There could be a “hidden” personality or personalities who is/are being abused.
You could lose track of the whole picture and of time as there could be another
personality who is directing things. It is important to look for and address
all of your personalities. You need to look after all of them. Don’t cause or
continue any conflict. Give each part an equal reward and thanks in working on
the programming. Sometimes you need to step back and imagine your whole self.
Listen for all of the parts speaking. Personalities can give you information
about the abuse and escape. Ask parts if they think you are being accessed, if
there are callbacks, if there has been any reprogramming, etc. Try to picture
your whole self. It may seem like Swiss cheese as there are holes in the
programming. These holes maybe of parts forced to be accessed and unable to
speak as yet. There maybe parts whose role it is to stop you from getting the
truth. Use your intuition to feel whether you have been told the truth. Also do
not condemn personalities. They were tortured and lied to and just need to be
cared for.
Care for all of yourself and which
includes every part. You need to look after and care for your whole self. Parts
with lies have only been lied to. They are not born liars. They could be led to
believe that they should lie in order to “help you" or conversely that you
“had done badly”. They were split off from you originally and in reality are
you. They have been twisted around to suit the perpetrators. You need to
reclaim you for you, and stop the handler’s lies and contamination. Your parts
only lie because this is what they have been told to do. They would not do it
ordinarily. Caring for them means listening to the part’s lies, not accepting
the lies, and explaining things in a non judgmental way. They need to know it
is the despicable organisation's fault. It means stopping the violence and lies
done to them, and in reality, you too. You underneath are really these parts.
With parts that were created when you were a young person, it is important to
understand your age at which they were done and care accordingly. This means
extra deserving attention, doing appropriate caring things such as singing
songs for very young personalities etc. Caring for the whole of yourself also
means being in the present, and looking after your current age self. It means
going for walks, eating healthy food, having good accommodation, etc. You are
looking after all of you.
We are People
It is important to remember that we
are people in the deprogramming. Sometimes we may forget that we are not robots
or zombies, and which the organization would despicably like us to believe. When
deprogramming, remember that personalities are people with feelings and have
levels of understanding and knowledge. We need to look after them. Also
feelings by themselves are not a safe and reliable guide. In deprogramming a
lot of feelings come up. The organisation abuses feelings a lot. Feelings are
just feelings. They have no sense of truth or insight and can be manipulated. I
was lied to so much that my “Mum was a perpetrator”. The organization produced
a feeling of hatred by Me towards Mum. It was based on a lie and now I am angry
at the organisation for lying and which is a more truthful emotion. Real
feelings are determined by a much larger truth. Even though feelings are not a
reliable guide, we need to respect manipulated personalities and ones self. It
is not our personalities’ fault that we are lied to, and so we need to be
gentle in explaining to personalities and ones self that we have been lied to.
Memories Come Up When They Can
Memories of when the programming
was done come up when deprogramming. This happens as you want to get rid of the
programming and the underlying violence and lies. It is important to respect
that you are bringing up memories when you can. You can work on them when you
can. In times of stress such as first remembering the abuse and at call back
times, you maybe flooded with memories. To try and understand things you may
wish to bring back too much. If panicking and memory is flooding back, ask
yourself why. Is it because of accessing? A callback for deployment? etc. When
the programming is understood it makes things easier. E.g. the fear and dread
felt on Saturday afternoon is because there is accessing then? One needs to
respect ones abilities in dealing with memory. Too much memory can mean
flooding, psychotic episodes and hospitalization. You need to say that you can
only deal with so much and go into program management (see following). Memories
of when the programming was done come up when they can. It is important to
respect that you are bringing up memories when you can. You can work on them
then. In times of stress such as first remembering the abuse and at call back
times, you maybe flooded with memories. You wish to bring back too much to stop
accessing. Now you need to also respect your abilities in dealing with too much
memory. You need to say that you can only deal with so much and go into program
management.
Trusting Yourself
The organization and its
programming methods of setups and electrocution etc where/are real. You can go
back into these real memories and undo it. Sometimes the organisation will lie
on purpose such as abusing 3D images which were said to be “your family dying”,
etc. Again it is important to see what the reality was. There were 3D images
and organisation members acting as family, etc. You can stop the 3D images by
turning off the screen. You can stop the perpetrators acting by doing something
that turns them off e.g. turning off the lights in the memory. If your real family was there ask them if
they know if you are present and where they/s/he think you are e.g. outside,
etc. The perpetrator/s and their/its programming methods with setups and
electrocution etc where/are real. You can go back into the memories and undo
it. You can also put them aside. You have the ability to control the
programming.
Care for all of yourself which includes every personality
You need to look after and care for
your whole self which includes every part. Personality parts have only been
lied to that “you are bad”, and some are led to believe that they are
"doing good for you because you are bad". Caring for them means
listening to the parts’ lies and not accepting them, explaining things in a non
judgemental way and how it is the despicable perpetrator’s fault, stopping the
violence done to you and being firm. With parts that were created when you were
a young person it is important to understand your age at which they were done
and care accordingly. This means extra deserving attention, eating the
appropriate foods e.g. baby foods, singing songs etc. Caring for yourself also
means in the general day to day sense. This means going for walks, eating
healthy food, having good accommodation, etc. You are looking after all of you.
Having a Strategy
First of all it is important to
have a conscious strategy when deprogramming either as coping or undoing. You
are deprogramming for a very good reason and it is helpful to be conscious and
control it. Ask why am I deprogramming? Why am I needing to react and get
anxious? What is the reality? How can the perpetrator get me or not get me? I
am safe, etc. What is my support such as therapists, friends, support groups,
etc. Is it to cope with a short term crisis? If so, go into short term looking
after yourself. Forget about undoing the programming. Lots of pampering, lots
of being with friends, lots of talking to the therapist, getting out or
sleeping - whatever you enjoy and tides you over. Is it to understand myself
better and get rid of the despicable perpetrator garbage and it is not a stress
time? Then undo the programming. The important consideration is how safe you
feel, and to keep on asking how safe you really are, and deprogram accordingly.
Program Management
All of these tools are concerned
with programming management or how to live your life with programming under
reasonable control. Discipline, living in your current age, understanding what
the fear and anxiety is that lies behind the deprogramming, etc can be very
important in this. The panic to deprogram, particularly at call back and
disclosure times, comes from the lie "that you or someone close to you
will die". This is not the case. In the seven years that I have been
surviving and from meeting two hundred other survivors NO ONE has died. You can
discipline one/yourself with this truth and say "this is a lie and
programming. I will not go into it." Sometimes discipline can seem too
difficult and as normal human beings we are not perfect and can "do the
best we can". This means having a "bum day" and not feeling bad,
and pride ourselves on not being the "best survivor". We/you didn’t
want the programming in the first place, so why should we also have to have extra
stress on being perfect?
Articulating the programming
This means getting an understanding
of it, and whether it be the whole thing, a specific area, etc. Write down what
is happening in the deprogramming or what you see in the programming. Allow all
the words to come up and put then in some order if you want. See if you are
going around in circles and not shifting or if new areas opening up, etc. It’s
also good to draw what you see whether it be the torture memory. Or an image of
the programming ‘system” or a part’s problems and fears, etc. Articulating the
programming and deprogramming is important in that you have something concrete
in front of you to refer to. Even if it is confused, it shows how the
programming is constructed and you can work out ways of undoing it.
Getting the Facts
It is very important to get the
facts and the reality when deprogramming. The organisation abuses fiendish
hypnosis, drugs, death threats, electrocution, etc to force and delude you into
thinking something else. A common one is that "your brother/sister
died". In fact, it could be an organisation member masquerading as
"your brother/sister". They, either your real brother/sister or the
organisation member, did not die. Another delusion you may be forced to think
is that you "are ringing the organisation at such and such a time".
You need to check whether this is the case or not by knowing where you were at
the time. You could be ringing but at a different time. Also ask why do I have
this message from the organisation? Why is the organisation trying to deceive
me? Is it because I am being accessed, but not at the time they specify? There
quite definitely could be recent accessing. As said before, feelings are not a
safe and reliable guide. Develop and trust your rationality, the facts,
intuition, etc.
A Humanitarian and Normal
Approach
Before explaining the specific ways
of deprogramming, and within the aim of demystifying it, it is important to
approach deprogramming from humanitarian and normal perspectives. This is important
for the victim/survivor because we are deceived into thinking that we are
robots and are very different from normal people. For victims/survivors and
supporters it is important to address our humanity. We breathe, eat, wash,
enjoy music, films, travelling, etc and as with survivors of other forms of
abuse basically need the good and beneficial things in life to deprogram. We
need a clear and independent mind, intelligent information and stimulation,
good physical exercise, good recreation, good food, good sex, good health, etc.
We need healthy emotions and the ability to release trauma and pain. Looking
after yourself means being a model for the personalities. They can see that the
general you is looking after yourself through good food and exercise, and so
will see that they also can benefit as well from these.
When dialoguing with parts it is
important to be aware of the parts age and his/her intellectual and physical
abilities. Suggest ways of undoing trauma, lies and escaping that fit in with
their age and abilities. Some victims/survivors refer to their programming as
“the system” and also call the parts by the code names the perpetrators called
them. Common names are generally public known ones such as Rambo, Bart as in
Simpson, Mickey Mouse, etc. They call them this because this is what they know
and/or to reclaim the words for themselves. I prefer not to do either as it
reinforces the programming for my parts. I don’t call “the system” anything. I see myself as having
many parts. Some are controlled by the perpetrator, and some are by me. I also don’t call parts code names it is only
reinforcing the programming and these are not their names anyway. I allow them
to call themselves what they want.
In reality, dissociated parts are
really you. This doesn’t feel like it as they seem to be acting against your
wishes. But they are in fact in your body and mind. What is specific about
programming is that parts are controlled by a perpetrator, and so therefore the
victim/survivor needs to reclaim them, and which is, in fact, reclaiming
yourself. The worst thing to do is see them as alien to you or like they’ve
“invaded your mind from outside”. They were separated from you by trauma and
then deceived. So therefore they are you. A good comparison is to see parts as
like wayward children of good parents. Children can be deceived that their
parents are wrong or not normal or not caring, etc by other children or society
generally. As with looking after these children, it is good to parent
personalities, particularly young ones, and show real love and care. Eventually
they will see that you, like parents of wayward children, are good and will see
that perpetrators are horrible and return or become associated.
Remember that all parts are really
really good. Never criticise a part. It’s like treating children as naughty and
to get info “out of them” which they believe is not good to tell you because
you will be killed. Always look after and respect them. Always respect promises
made to them. Show them that you will not put them in a harmful situation. Let
them act out with no serious harm if it takes the pressure off.
Demystifying it
It is important firstly to
demystify programming and deprogramming. Many people have the impression that
it is some very complicated and technological thing that is beyond
understanding. Programming is really about setting up an abusive mind set and
doing bad training which happens generally such as at schools, the army, the
workplace, etc. For example, in the army, the mind set is one of total
discipline and extreme patriotism. The training is to do tasks that fulfill
these. The abuse happens in the inhuman training, and in the delusion of
“serving totally, including dying, for ones country’. Deprogramming here is
becoming aware that the soldier has been brainwashed into specific behaviour
and thinking that doesn’t benefit him, and then detraining her/himself so that
s/he doesn’t have to behave and think like this anymore. Obviously, it also
means leaving the army.
How programming differs is that the
programming process and training is extremely traumatic, done very quickly and
“leaves no signs”. It can also abuse young children and babies. It is also
illegal, done very secretly and abuses dissociation and split personality
development and having many personalities. The mind control is also very
robotic in its operation with cueing, coded language, etc. The last major
difference is that the victim has no consciousness of the abuse. However,
fundamentally it is the same as a working class child being programmed to be a
worker with bad schooling, alarm clock cues to go to work, and little
information around him/her to understand the socio- economic exploitation.
As with all conditioning,
programming runs out after a while. Again, like any conditioning it gets
lessened, particularly with no contact. Perpetrators actually reprogram to try
and reinforce the original programming. If this stops then the programming
lessens in intensity. It doesn’t go away completely, but it does not seriously affect
as before. Programming gets lesser in its intensity, unless there is a program
built in to continue it which is common and needs to be addressed as with all
personality parts. As with healing all problems and emotional stress, there is
a lessening in the effects of the violence and the lies.
Coping With and Undoing
the Programming
Deprogramming is when you don’t
allow the programmed and cued behaviours or system to work. When you don’t
respond to programmed demands. There are two main aspects to deprogramming. You
either cope with it and not allow it to happen, or you undo it so that it can’t
happen again. Coping is when managing the programming so that you doesn’t do as
the organisation and handler demand. You cope with the pain and lies and are
not drawn into doing what the organisation and handler want. For example, not
going to a ritual abuse ceremony at Halloween. Undoing is when you deal
specifically with the programming and go into the memory of the programming
torture and lies and stops it at its source. Coping does not mean stopping the
programming at its source, and it can occur again. This is ok for the present.
You have stopped the command and for the time being this is ok. Undoing means
stopping it altogether so that it will not affect you again.
Coping We cope or undo depending on how much energy and time we
have. During a callback, we are more stressed and more inclined to cope. During
easier times, between callbacks, there is more time and energy to work on the
torture and lies of the programming, and therefore, stop it at its source. Deprogramming
is natural, and victims/survivors continue doing it until the programming does
not have any power. We are naturally getting rid of programming as it is lies
and torture and our psyches do not want horrible things. We will try and get
rid of control and unpleasantness within us. We were born good, and so we will
naturally get rid of anything horrible in ourselves. Even before knowing you
are a survivor/victim, getting rid of programming can sometimes be subconscious
to you, and all you know is that you are in a lot of pain. You can be lying
awake at night not knowing that the blackness you feel is actually memory of
programming or the organisation’s activities. Even as a survivor/victim you
maybe be depressed and under the organisation delusion that “nothing is wrong”.
In fact you are still being accessed and deployed, but tricked at a very deep
level that you “are safe and not being abused”. This happened to me for about
six years and then realized that I was still being abused.
The organisation has to continually
reprogram in order to ensure that the programming remains. If we were to
completely stop contact with the organisation and handler the programming will
run out by itself. As a conscious survivor we can be more aware of the
programming and if we are also being currently reprogrammed. Being aware of
programming, we can understand it more clearly, and stop it more effectively.
Choosing to cope or undo the
programming usually depends on the degree of the programming, your normal day
to day life, your responsibilities, awareness of how much you are being abused,
and how much support you have. It basically boils down to how much energy and
time has. When there is time, energy and even support for undoing programming
you will undo it. When there is only energy and time for coping with
programming, then you cope. Also a survivor in the initial stages of recovery
also knows less about the programming. When understanding what it is you can
stop it better.
Coping usually happens when there
is a lot of stress such as with callbacks and disclosure. For example, the
programming behaviour to self harm comes on horribly as the cue of disclosure
is set off. There is usually too much pain to go into the memory and stop it at
its source. It’s best to cope especially in stopping memory flooding. Coping is
basically taking your mind off the programming behaviours. To put the harmful
thoughts aside and concentrate on something else. If you take your mind off the
programming and do something else you have stopped the programming from having
its effects. Even concentrating on cooking dinner will take your mind from
programming.
If it is too overwhelming do not be
tempted to go back to the violence and torture of the programming setup. See it
as a memory and back in 1962, 1983, 1998, etc. It is a different year now. Be
in your current age and know what day, month and year it is. This is especially
very important for young parts who are very scared. Being in your current age
person is especially important for younger parts as they know then that an
adult survivor is in control.
Undoing the Programming
Undoing means going back to where
the programs were put into place and stopping the violence and lies so that you
will never be affected again. This means doing a kind of "rewind of a
video" in your memory and controlling how you will get rid of the violence
and the real perpetrators and free yourself from the lies and binds (sometimes
double or more binds). Use whatever techniques you want in this. This was
violence that you had no control over then. Now you can and do whatever you
wants. Its best to undo programming when there are periods of less stress such
as between callbacks, but if you need to undo programming in order to stop the
organisation such as stopping accessing, and you have the time and energy, then
this can be done. Deprogramming is basically going back to where the lies were
put in with extremely violent torture. This generally means bringing yourself
back to a more grounded way of being. In psychological/ medical terms it is
"associating the experience". You was forced to dissociate or float
off and space out in order to cope with the despicable horror of what the
organisation did to you. With a lot of dissociation comes the formation of a
separate personality part. (Please see the following multiplicity and
personality parts). Some methods are child rapes, spinning machinery,
electrocution, deprivation of food, hanging upside down, moving the person
towards a revolving saw, putting a knife in your throat, suspending them in air
by a cage or a harness, etc. They also all involve drugs and hypnosis. The
organisation then further abuses this dissociation and personality part
development by tricking the part into a lie that they "owe the
organisation". A handler lies that s/he was not aware of the torture and
pretends that s/he is “saving” you. The victim is caught between a horrible
life/death scenario or be “saved” by this devious and deceitful handler.
When rewinding the video it is
important to remember all the aspects of the programming. Where you were put,
what images they were abusing, where are the perpetrators and how the handler
is also one of the perpetrators. You could be put in front of a tv screen, or
in a staged play in an auditorium, have your head dunked at a river, be
suspended in a cage, etc. The perpetrators will play out a scenario that set
ups a life/death situation.
These usually involve friends and
family and are called the “loved ones”. They could be there in person or
fabricated as such. If there in person the friends and family can be programmed
so that aren’t aware of where they are and are innocent. If they know that they
are there they are perpetrators. In my programming my mum, brother, sister in
law and nephew were all non consciously programmed and didn’t know they were
being put into this scenario. The father knew and is a perpetrator. The friends
and family can also be fabricated by being on screen images or perpetrators
acting them in a staged play. The friends and family are not there at all and
the organisation uses fabricated versions.
The scenario is a setup where you
have no choice but to harm/kill. The only other “option’ and which isn’t an
option is that you will die. You have the right to save yourself as it is self
defence. This is morally and legally fine. If someone is “killed” then it is
because you have the moral and legal right to do so. You have the right to
protect yourself. You also have the right to stop the programming scenario. You
can take away the cords to the television and turn off the screen, you can
bring yourself down from the suspended cage and you can stop yourself being
drowned. Use your imagination in stopping these. E.g. you can call in a tractor
to lower the cage, call in the police or someone who is protective to stop the
drowning, etc. When the handler lies that “s/he saved you” you can be angry at
her and call her a liar. He or she is just another of the perpetrators who knew
and organized the setup in the first place. He or she is a not a “saviour”. You
can tell him/her angrily to get away and say no to his/her lies. It’s all a
setup and you have every right to stop this horrible memory. You did not want
to be at the programming setup and it was all a setup in any case.
Dialoguing with parts
A lot of deprogramming is talking
with parts. This may sound crazy but it isn’t. Parts know what the torture and
lies are, or can you information where your adult current self can work out
what the torture and lies are. Parts will talk to or with you or you can talk
with them. After a while it becomes second nature to have a dialogue with one
or even many parts. You can also do it out loud if you want. It’s not crazy. You’re
not in a psych ward because you know where you are. Important considerations
are in respecting the part and also their age in terms of their abilities,
knowledge and world view. As said before, listen to the part, even his/her
lies. They didn’t realise they were lies, or if they do they are saying them
for a good reason to them. Explain things in a non judgemental way and how it
is always the despicable perpetrator’s fault. With parts that were created when
you were a young person it is important to understand your age at which they
were done and care accordingly. This means extra deserving attention, eating
the appropriate foods e.g. baby foods, singing songs etc.
Immersion and Staying Outside
Immersion is going into the
programming to understand how it functions. Staying outside is observing it
from a distance. Both are important and you need to develop both and use them
together in order to work through the programming. For example, you need to
delve to feel the emotions, understand the personality parts etc, and then to
step back from them to get a perspective on what happens and what are lies etc.
The immersion is the subjective- experiencing the personal, the memories, the
mind, the intricacies of the programming, etc. When doing this you can rewind
the "vcr" of the memories and tell off the perpetrators. Staying
outside is the objective- the rational, the logical, the analysis of what is
lies and truth, etc. It is where you can be disciplined and not allow the junk
and lies to come in.
Opposite to Programming
We can also approach deprogramming
by what it constitutes, and do the reverse. The perpetrators wanted/wants a
victim who casually goes about their life oblivious to being abused. You
had/have non conscious personalities who dislike the host victim, and won't
tell you about the abuse or anyone else, such as a counsellor or policeperson. These
personalities were mainly formed when the victim was a child and so tends to
view the world from a child like stance. The personalities were also trained to
be robotic and have black and white views of the world. The personality worked
hard for an external perpetrator, who tortured and tricked the personality, and
is now their, and your, puppeteer. The perpetrator basically orders
her/him/them to do a lot of mainly illegal work, or s/he/them must suicide. All
the personalities must follow the perpetrator or commit suicide, and this
includes those who must keep other personalities in line by beating them up or
yelling horribly at them.
Therefore to see deprogramming from
a contrary view, we firstly need to be conscious of what the programming is
doing. What do the personalities have to do maintain the programming? to work
for the perpetrators? to react if we are deprogramming? etc. We can observe
what is happening, ask personalities what is happening, think over the
programming, etc. The aim is to get some consciousness about it. To shine a
light on what is happening when we are amnesic, asleep, awake, etc. The
perpetrators really do not want awareness. They spent years developing this
type of mind control in order that victims do not realise that we/they are
exploited. Talking respectfully with personalities is a great way to know what
is going on and stop the abuse. The main aim with awareness is to reveal the
truth about the programming.
Meditation is a good way of
searching for what the programming is about. Meditation is also called
mindfulness as it aims to see what is happening in the mind. In deprogramming,
meditation usually means personalities will ‘pop up’ in the form of the
perpetrators’ faces and bodies that produced them. We can talk with these
personalities or observe them, and see if they are programmed to cause trouble.
We can also notice other personalities and see what the relationships are
between them. Through observing, and even talking with, personalities we can
gain knowledge of what the system is and not buy into it.
Because programming is mostly
started when victims are very young, it is important to reverse this by being
in your current age (the age you are currently). Even victims indoctrinated
when an as an adult or teenager can benefit from this as your current age means
now and not the time back when you were first kidnapped. Your current age
brings firstly an adult viewpoint which is very important in being objective,
compassionate, empathetic, parenting and mature. Young parts especially will
benefit from these approaches. Good parenting is necessary when deprogramming.
As written before, victims/survivors programmed from when we were very young,
mostly have baby and child parts and need good parenting. We need to be extra
compassionate and empathetic in looking after very vulnerable and scared
people, clarifying what is not good and how the programming is lies, and then
providing a wholesome and nurturing environment instead of horribleness.
Programming is also about abusing
one or two very tortured and tricked personalities. Perpetrators especially
abuse single personalities who are lonely and terrified. When we take an
approach that is holistic, unified and inclusive, we can help the frightened
parts and show them they are not alone. We can foster internal talking between
personalities for truly good reasons such as escaping the perpetrators, instead
of personalities hounding others and making them act out programming. Also we
can be flexible, and reject the rigid, and black or white thinking, of
programming. We can practice as much as we want. Don’t have to be perfect, nor
a robot.
These are general and summarised
ways in which you need in deprogramming. Being rational- does this makes
sense?; use intuition- does this feel right?; getting feedback from
personalities particularly those that are not part of a program of a specific
personality you maybe working on, and from others such as friends and a
therapist; being flexible; being eclectic or using all/many strategies; being
sensible- e.g. is flying off a bridge really going to set you free- the reality
is that it will kill you; being clear and most importantly loving yourself. For
survivors- you suffered some of the most horrific and despicable crimes against
humanity. The true and real love of yourself is what has kept you both alive
and doing the deprogramming so that you have a better life. Cherish this.
Conscious, associated Present age
Put simply: deprogramming is looking
for and finding the truth, and undoing the lies and torture. We all have an
innate truth or knowing what is true. The truth for us is in knowing what the
programming actually is particularly its lies. It is knowing whether you are
being accessed, and whether you are being deployed. This truth comes from
seeing what is around you – the facts, from your intuition – does this feel
right, and from your sensibilities- does this makes sense. It also comes from
feedback from people truly close to you like your counsellor, other survivors
and friends. Programming is basically lies and there are many of them. The
first is that perpetrators are “your friends, your counsellor, etc”, the second
is that they are “helping you” against another perpetrator which can be an
earlier perpetrator, a perpetrator in competition with them or a “perpetrator”
they are actually friends with, or an innocent but gullible family person, etc.
PERPETRATORS ARE NEVER FRIENDS OR COUNSELLORS. It cannot be put more simply.
NOR ARE THEY EVER HELPING YOU. Again this cannot be more emphasised. A
victim/survivor needs to look at the truth. If a perpetrator is “helping you”
why is there a program to kill yourself? This is the most UNHELPFUL thing ever!
No matter what you feel happened, tricking you to commit suicide is NOT HELPFUL
WHATSOEVER. You don’t want to be part of something horrible, didn’t want it in
the first place and don’t want to die because of their lies. It is they that
abused you and you don’t want it anymore.
Undoing the lies and torture
Undoing lies mainly involves talking with parts that have the lies. You
can explain what is a lie and show them. For example, a lie can be found when
seeing how can a perpetrator be helpful if they want you dead? Most dialoguing
is within littlies who can see injustice clearly so once they see that it is a
lie they can understand and change and get angry. It is important to not be
judgemental. Littlies, really yourself when younger were fooled and tortured
into this lie. Once you can see fully that it is a lie, then you need to get
rid of the programming altogether by getting rid of the memory of the torture.
Whatever was abused can be undone. For example, if you are strapped to a table,
undo the straps by calling on real friends or a true therapist or have your own
imaginary friends undo them. You can also have an imaginary knife to cut the
straps, but not yourself.
You may also see their faces, either in their
natural state or with makeup costumes, wigs, etc. You may then get memories of
the torture such as being placed on a table with people with masks torturing
you with metallic instruments, electric prods, etc. You may also get memory of
keywords which are in fact cues, etc. After a while you may get a picture of
the whole scenario. One torturer physically torturing you while another
perpetrator “saves” you, etc. These
memories, while hard to deal with are important to get. Once you see what the
memory is, you can then work on it.
Basic Tools
These are summarised ways which you
can help in deprogramming:
Being rational- does this makes
sense? – going to a public space every Sunday morning does not make sense (in
reality being accessed because you subconsciously ring a perpetrator at a
public telephone);
Use intuition- this doesn’t feel
right – being in an unknown area late at night (in reality being directed to go
somewhere to be reprogrammed);
Getting feedback both internally
from personalities and from others such as friends and a therapist;
Being flexible.
Being eclectic or using all/many
techniques;
Being sensible. E.g. is jumping off
a bridge really going to set you free? The reality is that it will kill you;
Being clear – are things very
confusing? This could be that the deprogramming is not working or that there is
a personality who is afraid to speak because of a hold by the handler.
Most importantly - loving yourself.
As survivors we suffered some of the most horrific and despicable crimes
against oneself. The true and real love of ones self is what has kept us alive
and doing the deprogramming. This is so that we have a better life. Cherish
this.
Loose Stages of
Deprogramming
As written before, there are no
precise stages of deprogramming, but there are loose ones that happen with most
survivors, and which make sense when seen in their progress.
First challenges
The first stages are when you are becoming
aware that you have been abused. This can be direct in having past
memory/memories, having a good hunch that there was/is abuse and/or in knowing
fully that you have been abused. The programming, intended to stop awareness,
has not worked, and you have some consciousness of the abuse, even from an
early age. You know that a family member or members are criminal, and you are
wanting the first opportunity you can find to escape.
For other victims, who do not have
awareness, and where the programming to ‘not know’ is working, there are strange commands within yourself to
“kill yourself”, “kill your child”, “kill your partner”, etc. For “killing yourself”
“You must do this by jumping off a bridge”, “drive your car off the road”,
“jump off at The Gap in Sydney”, etc. and for your family “you must use a
knife”, etc. You don’t know why these commands are ‘turning on’, but the
feelings and thoughts are definitely there.
The intensity of any, and all of
the above, can sometimes drive a survivor to hospitalisation. Many, if not
most, survivors end up in a psych ward/hospital because the strength of these
thoughts has been too great. In reality, what has happened, is that you are
challenging the programming either “to not remember” and/or “to return to the
perpetrator” and/or “be deployed”, etc. What has kicked in are deliberately
placed suicide programs so that you will never tell what happened, or
intentional killing family programs so that you are put in prison, never
released and become too guilt ridden to remember. The perpetrators want that
you never know about the abuse and tell people. Another program that occurs
when remembering is “you will go crazy”, and as it seems very astonishing that
that this stuff exists, it seems ‘true’ that you ‘are crazy’, but in reality
you aren’t. People, who do go mad, do not know they are so, and therefore you
definitely are not mad or crazy.
Looking for validation
Most survivors when confronted with
the “suicide/kill others” programming, desperately try to find what is causing
these. Unfortunately, they can’t get accurate information from mental health
professionals, who say that the “voices” are simply “poor mental health”,
rather than real perpetrators trying to kill or silence them by programming.
Nowadays, there is the internet with information on government mind control and
programming, and counsellors with information about ritual abuse and related
abuse such as child pornography. Both also abuse programming. (I also think
that ritual abuse is part of the wider organisation’s list of abuses, rather
than a separate and distinct form of abuse). For survivors, who allow memory to
come up, and at the same time deprogram by not buying into the ‘suicide/kill
others’ programming, we can have information that can be validated by the
internet, a counsellor, or a support group such as for sexual assault
survivors.
Coping Deprogramming
Further ‘suicide/kill others’
programming will arise as more memory reveals the abuse, and more deprogramming
is needed by not buying into the commands. Coping with the programmed commands,
is needed a lot in the initial stages of recovery. Some days it is all
important to keep on stopping your mind from going overload. Baths, walks,
grounding, seeing a counsellor, talking with friends, lying on the lounge, etc
are necessary. You may also feel like you are in constant pain, find it
difficult to do normal things, suffer from insomnia, etc. This is when it is
essential to do self pampering from doing your nails, to looking at beautiful
books and photos, to walking along the beach, to go online shopping, to
whatever makes you feel good.
Also most survivors are usually
being accessed and deployed when first in recovery, and so there is also the
need to be safe from reprogramming and the perpetrators. As survivors/victims
are accessed on a periodic basis, reprogrammed on a periodic basis, and
constantly deployed in the organisations’ activities and ceremonies, there is a
definite need to stop any contact. The programming system will still sit there
with all of its names, cues and commands just as it did from when you were
first programmed, and so it won’t simply disappear because you have realised
you a victim/survivor. In fact the perpetrators are looking out if, and when, a
victim/survivor realises s/he is a victim/survivor, and keeps contact with
personalities most loyal to perpetrators. They force personalities to be
reprogrammed so that total control will continue. This phase of awareness by
victims/survivors is usually about two steps forward and one backwards, as the
victim/survivor is escaping, getting support and coping with programming, but
also being reaccessed and reprogrammed. Usually a victim/survivor has to go
somewhere there are no perpetrators at all.
Escaping
Most victims/survivors I know have
left the main area of their abuse in order to deprogram properly. The place is
extremely triggering, and causes shutdowns in intelligence and healthy
emotions, and means overall abuse. Also the main programmers and perpetrators
in his/her .life, even from when s/he was born, are in this town/city/ area.
They know the programming completely and have had total control. In order to
maintain control by the organisation, they may “offer escape” where they really
send you to another perpetrator in another town/city/area. This has happened to
me on many occasions and I was fooled into thinking “I was escaping”. Another
ploy to renew control used by perpetrators is for you to get roughed up by
perpetrators or victims in the new place you’ve escaped to. The perpetrators
lie that they “saved you” from being hurt by the perpetrators or victims. This
happened to me when I escaped to Perth.
The main programmer in Brisbane got a
perpetrator in Perth to get a victim to start
punching me and make it seem like “life in Perth was horrible”. Thankfully I realised
this was a setup and worked on the accessing and stayed in Perth. I knew then that I had escaped.
Perpetrators, especially the main programmer, will abuse any method to make
them/s/he seem like the “good guy/s” and continue control. Escaping means that
the survivor is not being accessed, especially by non conscious means where an
unknown personality inside the survivor, still loyal to perpetrators, is
ringing or contacting in some way with a perpetrator. If accessing is stopped,
so is reprogramming, deployment and other aspects of control.
Stabilised Periods of Deprogramming
When the survivor has escaped,
there will be stabilised periods of recovery, and one can deprogram by both
coping and undoing the programming itself. One usually has to do the coping
with the suicidal threats and threats to close people, especially with callback
times with ritual abuse such as Beltane (May 1st) and Halloween (October 31st)
for Satanic AGOCMP survivors, but also generally with contacting the
perpetrators. With time you begins to understand the programming more clearly.
For example you understand why the accessing programming is there and work on
it to stop the accessing. You have also dealt with the pain and know how to
battle it. The programming setups also emerge from memory, and you can see and
understand what they are and why they were abused. You can work on them and
stop the setups and lies. The falsities in programming usually are “your loved
ones are there hurting you”, “you killed someone close to you”, “your loved
ones are killing you”, or any other supposed scenario concerned with a partner,
family, child, enemy, etc and deep ethical considerations. Because victims are
drugged, hypnotised and extremely destabilized, it is very hard for them to see
clearly and fight against the setups and lies, and so very sadly they truly
think they have “murdered their mum”, etc. The reality is that the mum is very alive.
When deprogramming these setups it is important to distance oneself from the
drugging, hypnosis and destabilising. Drinking lots of fluid, especially water,
clears the mind and you see clearly that “the mum” etc was a perpetrator stand
in. Once this falsehood is revealed to the personality holding this trauma, the
programming collapses.
When not being accessed and
reprogrammed you can also work more freely on stopping the system from being
abused. When being accessed, it can be very difficult for you as it feels like
you are running against the clock. The accessing program (and the following
reprogramming) is forcing him/her to return and she is battling this program.
It is important to address the accessing program especially and either cope
with it, or even better, to undo it. When not being accessed, reprogrammed and
having no callbacks for organisation ceremonies and activities, there are long
periods when you can address programming and also undo it.
After some time of adjustment to
dealing with the programming, you works out ways of deprogramming that are
second nature. Once adjusted to memory work, coping, etc, you isn’t so frantic
and can approach deprogramming in a more stable way.
S/he will start to see the setups
and be able to undo them. They will collapse like buildings and not be able to
stand. You will also feel that the ropes, that controlled you like a
puppeteer’s, will be cut and stopped.
Normalising Programming
Programming and deprogramming can
be understood. Programming is never acceptable, but is similar to all
indoctrination. Everyone is indoctrinated into something whether it be
conditioning about class, gender, etc. These are also based on violence and
lies. Working class men are conditioned to be aggressive by violent sports and lies
that they are “powerful”. Working class women are conditioned by violence that
they be “submissive”. AGOCMP programming is also a form of indoctrination and
conditioning. It is on a societal continuum of indoctrination. As the
criminality is extreme so is the indoctrination process. The organisation want
victims that are totally controllable and completely do not know of the abuse.
Victims are indoctrinated with horrific torture and lies, and forced to
dissociate so that we do not know of the abuse.
As with any conditioning,
programming also runs out after a while if not reprogrammed. Personalities will
see that the handler and the organisation are all liars and torturers, and will
not act out the behaviours. They will come over to your side when they understand
this. The intensity of the violence and lies also lessens over time. The
organisation will try and stop this natural process by reprogramming, and this
is why you/victim especially needs to stop accessing. There can also be
programs that are built in and which continue the programming within the person
i.e. with no outside accessing, and this too needs to be addressed.
Personalities are lied to that the victim/survivor is ‘the enemy’ and have to
‘rebuild the programming’ in order to ‘help’ the handler ‘maintain beneficial
control’. The personalities have to see where there has been deprogramming, and
“patch it up so it’s brand new”. Also when being accessed, the handler can
threaten parts to “rebuild the system”. If they don’t do their job the handler
will punish them. This is another reason to stop accessing.
As said deprogramming is natural.
Ones psyche doesn’t like lies and horribleness being in ourselves and will do
everything to discharge it. The organisation programming is one of the most evil
things a criminal organization can do and so the mind and body will get rid of
it naturally. As it is a particular type of horribleness, we need to address
how it was placed there and address the specific concerns. These being the
style abused such as a spinning machine, the enormity of the lies i.e. that
“you killed someone”, “I (the handler) saved you” and “you must obey me and the
organization at all costs”.
It’s also important to look at the
important areas of the programming and do the opposite. The perpetrators,
including the knowing and organising handler, force the victim to dissociate
into a personality by various means e.g. drugging, electrocution, etc. It is
therefore important to associate or ground oneself so that the dissociated part
isn’t under their control by the means of dissociation. One needs to remove in
ones memory anything that causes dissociation. It is then important to stop the
lies. These are that “you wanted to kill someone”, that “you are evil”, that
you are “one of them”, etc. The reality is that you didn’t want to kill but
were forced to in order to save yourself. Saving youself in self defence,
against someone murdering you or has been told is murdering you, is morally and
legally correct. You needs to see the truth. This will also help with
associating or bringing back the organisation controlled part back to you where
s/he rightfully belongs. The lies that “you owe the organisation” or “we saved
you” are shown again to be lies and you have control of yourself. You originally
had this and you are simply getting rid of the torture and lies and being
yourself again.
Variations
Each of us copes and undoes
programming his/her own way. People have individual interests and strengths.
Some people enjoy looking at psychology and how the mind works and go into the
intricacies of brainwashing. Some people use the media and public education to
get rid of their anger against the organisation and its programming. Other
survivors see themselves as a community of personalities. There is no one or
right way to deprogram.
A personality thinking that only the rest of the personalities will die
A survivor needs to consider an
important aspect of programming and which can be very beneficial to know. A
personality who is following orders from the handler and thinks that you should
be dead also believes that s/he “will be saved when the person dies”. S/he is
lied to by the handler that he/she/it "will live" after he/she/it
kills off the victim. This is not the truth. When a person dies, god forbid, the
whole person really dies which includes all of the personalities including the
personality who “will be saved”. The personality needs to see that when s/he
has seen dead bodies in the past the whole body dies and this is the same for
the personality. The personality will die exactly the same as the other
personalities. There is only one heart for the whole body. Each personality
does not have an individual heart and mind. When seeing this the personality
usually comes over to your side.
Disruption between personalities
Multiple victims/survivors have
programming which deliberately abuses multiple personalities in you. By being
multiple, the organisation thought it could have more parts "to play
with" and attempt internal disruption. There are deliberate conflicts made
between personalities. They can be based simply on what colour they are coded e.g.
blue personalities versus red. Or the handlers can make one personality stop
other personalities from seeing the truth. Deprogramming sometimes can be
difficult when there is internal disruption. You allows the personality to say
what the truth is and at the same time stopping a belligerent personality from
causing conflict against another personality and the victim her/himself.
Sometimes deprogramming means both addressing a personality and at the same
time seeing the whole system. One part may have been lied to and which is
contaminating the whole system. You needs to explain to the part lied to that
there is a lie and reassure everyone else that you and the personality won’t
accept the lie. It means looking after everyone.
When the perpetrator is a woman
The organisations/organisations
have female perpetrators. They are conscious and deliberate perpetrators which
will torture, program, revel in the ceremonies and be leaders of the
organisations/organizations. Two of the organisations I was abused by were led
by women and they were despicable, evil infested perpetrators. Most of the
handlers who tortured and programmed me were women. I have a feeling women perpetrators
abused the status of women to further inflict pain and mind control. We
supposedly aren’t allowed to hit women, react against them and only feel sorry
for them, but these perpetrators deserve the same resistance and stopping as
any perpetrator. Fight back and kill off the woman perpetrator in the memory
just like any perpetrator.
Crisis periods
Crisis periods are when we are
forced to contact for accessing and deployment. There are demands to contact by
either face to face, phone, etc, and on a certain day, date and hour, etc; or
within a certain time period. Stress happens when we are counteracting and challenging
the demands and the programming comes on with memories of the torture and the
threats. The programming stress also comes on when we disclose or remember the
abuse. The crisis period is fighting the memory of the horrible torturing and
the threats and lies, and within a strict time period. For example, you maybe
forced to ring on Sunday and you remember this on Thursday and so from Thursday
to Sunday you are stressed to the max. On one side is the knowledge that you
don’t have to ring – the “people” are horrible perpetrators who abuse you to do
their dirty work. On the other are the horrible memories of torture and threats
or really lies. So you become distraught. Also the parts that have the memory
are usually young parts. They feel very vulnerable, are in lots of pain, and
find it difficult to be rational, and to be talked with. You make it to Monday,
the day after the “deadline” but there is also another backlash as you wait to
see “if someone has died” which always turns out to be a lie. By Wednesday you
can start to calm down again as the parts see that it was bullshit.
Deprogramming during a crisis
period is fighting the pain and waiting for the period to finish. Short term
strategies are really important. The most important thing is to look after
yourself. Try to not go into the programming memories deeply unless you feel
you can. Do whatever you can to stop the pain and cues, and which doesn’t hurt
others or yourself badly. Try to be in the moment by breathing, meditating,
going for walks, having a bath, swimming, simply resting, etc. Not buy into it
and brush it off. Talking about it with whoever can listen - a therapist,
survivors, friends, a telephone counselling service, etc. Get clarity and
feedback if it helps. Express yourself and say how horrible the pain is. Go
somewhere that has no people and scream, write it down, draw it, etc. Release
the pain, the frustration, the anger, etc. Talk or dialogue with parts and
reassure them that this period will ease. Let them express themselves about
this period without causing harm to anyone especially them.
Call Back Stress Times
Call back times can be the most
harrowing times for victims/survivors. The most important thing to remember is
that it is only temporary. During this crisis period it is important to get all
the support you can. Tell your friends, therapist, telephone crisis counsellor
(e.g. Lifeline), etc that you want as much support as you can. This is your
crisis period. Do whatever it takes to get you through the day and night.
Whatever it takes to keep you safe and sane- scream, shout, ring Lifeline, have
a bath, suck a dummy, etc. You did not choose to have this as with all organisation
activities put upon you. You can now choose to cope and not allow the
programming to affect you.
These are ways of coping from a
ritual abuse survivor magazine from the 1990s in Australia called Beyond Survival.
Breathe. Breathe deeply and wriggle
your toes. Rub your arms and legs. Blink hard. Keep eye contact with something
such as your pet.
Make a list of your reasons NOT to
kill yourself. Read it. Give a copy to your friends to read out to you when
needed.
Be safe and warm. Put a blanket
around you and cuddle a teddy bear. Hold onto your pet.
Make a list of things you can do to
make you feel better: go out for dinner, have a bath, read a book, suck on a
dummy, go for a walk. Whatever works or feels right for you.
Write in a journal.
Ring a friend.
Tell yourself that you are worth
being loved. You are good.
Be proud of having survived. The
fact that you are still alive after all the torture shows what an amazingly
strong person you are.
Ring a crisis number and talk to
them.
Be
angry at the perpetrators.
There are as many versions of this
setup as there are situations which the perpetrators wanted to abuse you by.
They could abuse specific family and friendship relationships e.g. a
relationship with your nephew. They could abuse any physically and
psychologically painful situation that their devious and murderous minds can
imagine. The extremely important thing to see is that it is always a setup. An
attempt to cause pain, particularly suicidal guilt in a seeming no win
situation, and then exploit this pain to act as “saviours”. The perpetrators,
especially the handler are not saviours. He or she is a devious and extremely
harmful perpetrator. You did not want to be at the programming sessions, and
have the right to say no to all the setups. Look for the truth, and don’t go into the
falsely made and incorrect feelings of the programs.
Overall or Long Term Deprogramming
Overall or long term deprogramming
is addressing the “system” and undoing or dismantling it. It differs to crisis
management in that its aim is to get rid of the programming altogether or to
where it is manageable and controlled by you. During non crisis periods or when
there is “slack’, the victim/survivor can deprogram more fully. Overall
deprogramming is a natural process because we don’t want to have unnatural
things such as programming in our minds and body.
Overall deprogramming firstly needs
to have a strategy that is addressing the whole programming. This can mean
looking at it as a whole or taking it apart bit by bit or both. As we generally
are not aware of the whole programming, it usually means addressing
personalities or major areas of personalities such as the accessing part of the
system. It is usually the accessing parts that we address first as this stops
control and creates better safety to continue the overall deprogramming.
Undoing programming means firstly
understanding the personalities, their roles and tasks, and the area of their
deployment. It then means going back to where the personalities and programs
were put into place and stopping the violence and lies so that you will never
be affected again. This means doing a kind of "rewind of a video" in
your memory and controlling how you will get rid of the violence and the real
perpetrators and free yourself from the lies and binds (sometimes double or
more binds). Therefore a lot of this work involves doing traumatic memory work
and getting clarity about what perpetrators were doing what during the
programming process or session. The deception needs to be seen fully. When the
deception is understand the lies, threats and supposed loyalty to the
perpetrators is gotten rid of. Use whatever techniques you want in this. This
was violence and deception that you had not control over then. Now you can and
do whatever you want/s and get rid of the controlling memories.
The first major aspect is to
remember the physical trauma such as being placed into suspended cages, in
front of rotating blades, etc. Help the personality by suggesting ways s/he can
escape from them and if wanted to get revenge. This involves using imagination
such as becoming small in the cage and flying away. It can mean bringing in
his/her own personal friends and beating up the perpetrators and untying
him/her before the blades do damage. Suggest ways that the personality can
escape or ask him/her how s/he could do it if s/he had any and every resource
available to him/her.
The second aspect is to break the
binds of deception. Explain to the part that all the perpetrators in the place
whether there originally or coming in afterwards to “save you” are
perpetrators. They all knew what was happening and they all set it up together.
It was all a huge trick. Ask the personality to not buy into any of lies and
refuse to sign or agree to contracts. The personality can then get angry at all
the perpetrators.
The part may feel confused,
disappointed, angry, etc after this undoing of the programming and revelation.
Look after him/her and even explain more fully that it was all a trick in order
to control him/her. Ask how s/he is feeling and what they would like to do to
the perpetrators. Hopefully it will be anger. Allow the part to express the
anger to the major perpetrator and/or to all the perpetrators. “Filthy”
language is allowed.
Each part was produced by similar
ways and so each part needs to be able to understand and discharge the emotion.
A part could also be originally abused and then further abused and so each
traumatic episode needs to be undone. Sometimes two or more parts together were
abused in subsequent programming “sessions”.
This memory work leads to
reassociating or integration back into the person, and stops the control and
memories of the abuse.
The next aspect in the whole
programming system is to address the areas and layers. The programming system
was first produced as a predetermined structure by the organisation. It had
specific stages of indoctrination that are generally called core and secondary/
tertiary/etc layers. For children this can start in the womb and for kidnapped
people it starts at the age they were kidnapped. This is when there is a linear
progression to programming. The core stages have particularly very heavy and
continual torture. When working on dismantling the layers, you may go back to
the core programming and work on the base layers. By working on base layers you
can deflate a layer on top of this to a small degree. However, as programs are
all about violence, you will still need to work on the upper layers. They are
not simply put in without violence.
The other aspect are areas.
Examples are the accessing areas, the assassination areas, etc. One needs to
help the parts discharge and to explain to all the parts in the areas that they
are abused and so do not have to follow orders of working together, or dobbing
another rebellious part in, etc. By talking to parts in areas you can get some
agreement that there is abuse and each will see that they do not have to be
abused.
In undoing training, again an
explanation that the part has been abused, will lead to them giving up roles
and tasks. Use realism, for example, that they aren’t even being paid! Or that
who really does get the benefits? Only perpetrators get benefits. Allow the
parts to release their anger at the perpetrators.
Deprogramming, with dismantling the
system, will become second nature over time. It is good to firstly try the
discharging and memory work with a therapist or with another survivor or a
trusted friend. Then after some practice and good results, it will become
easier.
Remember, you cannot get a full understanding
of accessing, or of programming, in one day. The programming took ages to put
in and it can’t be removed in a day. Rome
truly wasn’t built in a day. Respecting yourself and your parts is the best way
to undo programming. I have had times when I’ve pressured and demanded parts to
“tell me what’s happening”. Everyone’s backs came up and wouldn’t say a thing
understandably. I reminded them of perpetrators. But if allow I them to tell me
at their and my own pace then answers came forth just like human people do.
Deprogramming for
Different Situations
As said, deprogramming has
different strategies for different situations. Generally it is within Short
Term Crises and Long Term Deprogramming. What is general and common to
victims/survivors is that deprogramming happens as either a reaction to crisis
periods or within an overall deprogramming. Coping is putting it at bay or
aside. This particularly happens during crisis times like call backs. During
the rest of the year it is also important as there is a need and want to have a
normal everyday life free from programming. If in a crisis please the
Guidelines webpage. An important consideration here is to live your life in
your current age. Do not be tempted to go back to the violence and torture of
the cue that was long ago. Remember that the violence and lies are not
happening today or now. It is merely a memory and back in 1962 or 1983, etc. It
is 2015 now.
Stopping Programming for Being Accessed and Deployed
A crisis period can happen when
there is a fear of being accessed. Trust your intuition and panic around this
as in most cases it does involve accessing. Lots of internal understanding, and
lots of talking with inner people, are extremely important. Also lots of
looking at the bigger picture is necessary. For example, why am I in this place
and for this long? Ordinarily I wouldn’t go to or stay here for this amount of
time. This could be a sign of accessing and deployment.
There are many ways of being aware
if you are being accessed or are being sent on a “mission”. The main one is to respectfully talk to parts
or personalities. Either organise a time to have a private meeting within
yourself or simply talk when needed. Let all the parts speak even if some or
many are told lies. Discuss with him/her what is happening and look for the
truth. You need to view this from a parental, adult or overall perpsective with
a material understanding of what is happening now. For example, parts maybe
scared of particular places as they remind of past abuse, so explanations are
needed that correspond to the age of the part. Parts are telling the truth and
this needs to be expanded upon. Ask what is happening? If parts are very
emotional, especially sad, then this is a major sign that abuse is happening.
You may have been accessed yesterday and the parts that were accessed are
traumatised. If accessed, ask with consideration what time and where the abuse
happened. Having this awareness means you can discharge the hurt and sadness
and be in a better position not to be accessed again. Another way is to keep a
diary of where you have been for the week, month, day, etc. Also ask
understanding friends, partner or someone who would have a rough idea of your
routine or activities where you were or should have been on particular days and
times to see what the reality is. Any
missing times should then reveal themselves. Another is to use intuition or to
act on niggling feelings.
Accessing programming is very
intense as it is the one that directly controls you. If there was no accessing
you would be free. When you break accessing you stop the control. Breaking
accessing programming is like undoing programming generally. You look for the
truth and undo the lies. Undoing accessing has much stress since the
perpetrators put time constraints upon when you have to contact next whether by
phone, face to face, etc. You may feel you are deprogramming against a clock
and within a particular time period. It is important to not feel so stressed by
getting an understanding of what the accessing is. Ie when are you going to be
accessed, and where and how. This means you know what the situation is and can
take stock of it and not be influenced too much by panic. Talk to parts whose
role it is to be accessed. Ask them with care and genuine concern that
accessing is not good and that perpetrators are actually horrible. Also use the
stress itself. What days and times are you stressed, and what brings on the stress
– the thought of phone contact, face to face contact, etc.
Breaking accessing can be direct in
not doing the actual contact. This means a thorough understanding that the
accessing was actually broken. There could be a deliberate program of fooling a
part that “accessing was broken”, but in fact another part had to contact. You
will know if accessing is broken by intense programming reactions before,
during or soon after the time of supposed contact. When this happens, it is
important to deprogram as in a stressful situation by looking after yourself
and particularly the parts that had to contact. Talk with them about how the
perpertrators are not helpful and that you shouldn’t have to contact anyway and
within their time demands. You should be able to do what you want.
Breaking accessing can also be
undoing the programming beforehand. This again means looking after parts and
explaining that perpetrators are not friends or helpful, and that you can do
what you want.
Stopping accessing is a major stage
in stopping being a victim. Once accessing has stopped, they cannot control you
anymore. They cannot tell you where to go, they cannot reprogram or torture you
again, they cannot tell you how to live your life, etc.
Deprogramming and the Organisation. Reclaiming Ourselves.
Programming and deprogramming need
to be put into a organisation perspective in that they are specifically about
the organisation. This is its function. It relates specifically to being
accessed, deployment, disclosure and continuing with truly supportive people,
disrupting that support and organisation activities. The aims of the
organisation are to keep you under control and working for them. You need to
separate from these. THESE ORGANISATION ACTIVITIES ARE NOT THE TOTALITY OF
LIFE. WE CAN USE OUR TIME TO DEPROGRAM, WORK ON OTHER MEMORIES AND HAVE A NORMAL LIFE. Survivorship basically is about stopping the
control and abuse, and having a life that is our own. Even though we may not be
conscious of it, our lives were controlled by perpetrators, and with recovery
we find and reclaim ourselves so that we control ourselves. We find free will,
we develop healthy relationships, we have a mind that is entirely our own, and
we go wherever we want to and when we want to.
Deprogramming In Relation to Continuing Your Life
There are two very important
aspects to deprogramming and continuing to live. The first is that SELF HARM
AND SUICIDE ARE PROGRAMS. THEY ARE NOT NATURAL. DON’T BELIEVE THE PROGRAM.
SUICIDAL THOUGHTS ARE CAUSED BY PROGRAMMING. IF THERE WAS NO PROGRAMMING THERE
WOULD BE NO SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. The second aspect is a very useful awareness.
This is to TELL THE PERSONALITY WHO IS PROGRAMMED TO SUICIDE IS THAT SHE OR HE
WILL DIE TOO. EVERYONE DIES INSIDE THE BODY INCLUDING THE PERSONALITY. The
personality is lied to by the perpetrators, especially the handler, that the
suicidal personality will “continue to live after s/he has killed”. This is
another lie. IF YOU SEE A DEAD BODY YOU KNOW THAT EVERYONE INSIDE THE BODY
DIES.
A person stops deprogramming when
there is no need to work on the programming. This mean s/he is not constantly
affected by programming and abuse memories. S/he is not being accessed,
reprogrammed and deployed. Signs that a person has deprogrammed are: not acting
out greatly eg not seeing similar looking people today as being the same as the
perpetrators; not seriously falling into the same patterns of abuse eg sexual
compulsion; can really account for their time and so is not being accessed and
deployed; is not compulsed to do things such as instantly “going on a holiday”
which is a sign of deployment ie couriering information; etc. It is very
important to be in touch with ones emotions and being responsible for them. If
adults, it means having a normal adult life- studying, working, parenting,
leisure, community pursuits, etc; Being deprogrammed means that the programming
is either not there anymore or is not functioning.
Deprogramming and General Life
Deprogramming needs to be seen in
relationship to life generally. You are pressured by work, studies, family,
friends, relationships, shopping, etc. It is important to know when it is
needed to deprogram. During stress times, coping with programming is very
important and life generally needs to be well used such as being with trusted
friends or telling unreliable friends that you can’t see them. Social functions
need to be made less important, etc. It is important not to get triggered by
similar looking organisation things/people which are not organisation, and to
not go near or do things that will trigger or do harm such as tall buildings.
Have We Fully Deprogrammed Yet?
How does one know that they are
deprogrammed? Not being accessed nor deployed Every every survivor I know is
being accessed when having awareness and starting recovery. Survivors are lied
to that they “are not being accessed” “are not dissociated” and “are escaping”.
This happened to me as many handlers lied that I was “escaping”. Personalities
unfortunately believed it. Perpetrators do not want to allow a victim to
escape. Victims bring much money by the exploitation, the perpetrators have
spent a lot of time and money in programming and deploying the victim, and the
perpetrators don’t want survivors telling the truth and revealing what the
perpetrators do. If we looked at the issue logically just because you are
aware and getting support does not automatically mean you have escaped the
organisation. It’s the same as with incest survivors. Just because they become
aware of abuse doesn’t mean that the perpetrator is not there in the house, at
family gatherings, etc. A Victorian study in 1996 found that most counsellors
working with programmed victims/survivors believed that clients were still
being accessed and abused.
There is no full
proof way of knowing your whole system and understanding that you have
completely deprogrammed. You can use your intuition, the knowledge that you
feel really free, that there is no contact, or that perpetrators are not
popping into your head, etc to get some understanding. The best way to measure
this is to get a real understanding of yourself and whether you are living your
life the way you want all the time. This simply means knowing yourself and
whether you are truly fulfilling yourself. This means that everything you do is
controlled by you and that all your decisions and actions are for your benefit
only. Perpetrators sometimes will “fit in” with something you are doing to
disguise their control. For example going on a holiday you have planned and
getting you (an unknown loyal personality) to courier information to that
place. However, if you have a true understanding of yourself, this manipulation
will soon reveal itself.
Reclaiming and
reassociating personalities
It is not necessary to reassociate the personality if you
don’t want to. Some survivors have reclaimed their parts and system and kept
them as they are with new jobs if need be, They are safe with you so that they
aren’t controlled by perpetrators. They didn’t feel they needed to go back and
discharge and reassociate. A survivor I know talks about her GI Joe doing this
and that for the benefit of her, GI Joe and the whole system. Some survivors
have wanted to not have any reminders of the abuse and have gone back to the
memory and worked it through so that the part as such doesn’t have to be
dissociated anymore and not have the roles and cues. Some survivors are in
between – a mixture of parts, reassociated and integrated. All these parts are
ok and there needs to be no criticism of anyone. All the ways are ok as long as
there is no control by perpetrators.
When a person deprograms
sufficiently so that they are not controlled by accessing and therefore
deployed, and arent affected by programming and abuse memories, they can start
to leave "the nest" of survivorship and have an independent life.
Signs that a person has deprogrammed are: not acting out greatly eg not seeing
similar looking people today as being the same as the perpetrators, and not
seriously falling into the same patterns of abuse eg sexual compulsion; being
real and in touch with ones own emotions and being responsible for them; if
adults, having a functional adult life- studying, working, parenting, leisure,
community pursuits, etc. One can never be perfect. The effects of abuse
particularly from perpetrator abuse can be long term and fundamental. The
important aspect is that the person now has a fully functional life, with the
emphasis on life.
Views and Webpages on Deprogramming
Views on Deprogramming
This is from a well known and remarkable survivor Carol Rutz.
She has written extensively about GOCMP and has given papers at a university
and conferences on GOCMP. Her groundbreaking book A Nation Betrayed
(http://www2.dmci.net/users/casey) is well read within the survivor and
therapist community. This is from a speech she gave at the SMART (Stop Mind
Control and Ritual Abuse Today) Conference in 2003.
http://ritualabuse.us/smart-conference/conf03/healing-from-ritual-abuse-and-mind-control/
“I don’t believe there is only one way to deprogram. There is no right or wrong
way. What is effective for one may be totally unworkable for someone else. I
believe the key to deprogramming is Internal dialogue.”Internal dialogue is
talking with personalities about how to deprogram, what is causing a current
crisis, if and when accessing occurs, what is stopping them from telling you
the truth, what needs to be deprogrammed and how to go about doing it, etc. As
Carol says it is extremely important. It is like talking with a community in
order to understand a community’s problem.
Webpages about
Deprogramming
Another example is this webpage is
from a survivor who makes online collages to remember what the programming is
more clearly and then undo it. We are forced not to use the usual ways of
remembering and noting what happened such as writing with our normal hand. But
there are other ways we can use such as singing songs that remind us of the
programming information and writing with our non dominant hand. In this webpage
Grace makes collages online to indirectly, but still successfully, remind her
of the programmers, the style of programming, what its intentions are, etc. It
is very ingenious.
http://graceartjourney.blogspot.com/
Deprogramming Summary
Always look for why you are deprogramming. It could be due to
panic and anxiety over disclosing, escaping, stopping accessing, stopping callbacks
for ceremonies, etc. Understanding the reasons for deprogramming anxiety gives
a better perspective and helps slows things down. It also helps you to
understand if you’re currently being accessed, reprogrammed, etc.
Never trust a programmer/organisation. They/he/she is/are
always trying to deceive you for their selfishness. They only want you to be
bound to them. They never ever “help you”. It is always for the organisation.
They are selfish and manipulative in wanting you to do their criminal activities.
To them you are merely a robot that makes them money. They find an organisation
such as a government espionage agency or a perpetrator within their own
organisation which wants something illegally done, and then sells you like a
slave to them in order to do their dirty work and make heaps of illegal money
for the handler and the perpetrators. They may sound “sweet” and “empathetic” but in
reality they are all abusing you.
No-one will die. I have known over two hundred survivors, and
they and their loved ones have never died. There are pragmatic reasons for this
in that the organisations won’t kill off someone whom they can abuse which
would normally includes your family. Also the murder of someone is taken very
seriously by law enforcement, and all information regarding the murder of
someone, including from us, is thoroughly investigated. The only thing
assisting the perpetrators at the moment is their invisibility, and if that is
blown in the investigation of a murder, then this last feature will be
eradicated. It was the same with the mafia and organised pedophilia. When
murders such as that of drugs campaigner Donald Mackay happened in Griffith, the lid was blown on organised drug crime in Australia. This
is the same as with abuse. Murders are very very serious crime and
investigators will research for decades unlocking all the information. The
perpetrators don’t want this visibility and awareness and will not commit such.
The Memories are old. They are also manipulated memories
which intend to deceive you. The organisation and handler never helped you with
the programming. They staged it so that they always come out “the winner”
regardless of what really is the truth. They are trying to make out that they
are “helpful”. By saying that “you must die” is not helpful. There was never a
“saviour”. They were all in this together and they all knew about the violence.
You have the right to live where you want and do what you
want.
If you have innocent family and friends being non consciously
abused by the organisation. They are told lies about you and you do not need to
listen to the lies which are really from the organisation. The innocent family
and friends are only repeating what they have been lied about. The innocent
friends and family are not horrible people. You do not have to accept what
innocent friends and family are told.
Be eclectic. Use all techniques and the appropriate ones.
Depending on what your needs are- crisis, wanting to work on deep programming,
wanting to remain calm, etc - use the technique/s that corresponds to your
needs and wants.
