Monday 12 January 2015

Deprogramming



Deprogramming

Introduction; The Basic Considerations When Deprogramming; Coping With and Undoing the Programming; Opposite to Programming; Loose Stages of Deprogramming; Deprogramming for Different Situations; Deprogramming In Relation to Different Aspects; Views and Webpages on Deprogramming; Summary

Introduction
Deprogramming essentially is stopping what the perpetrators demand. These commands are to: “do the tasks; maintain the programming; not contact support; and only contact perpetrators. If these do not happen you must suicide”. Also as the programming is deliberately not conscious, “one should not remember anything about the programming, the deployment, the accessing and the organisations’ activities. Otherwise, you must suicide”. The demands are not couched in these words. The perpetrators pretend to be “nice and supportive”; and you “can ring us, we are counsellors”, but these are lies.
So to deprogram can mean stopping doing the tasks; dismantle the programming; get support such as a counsellor or read information about recovery, stop contacting perpetrators, remembering what the organization and its activities are about, and stopping suicide. These may seem easy on paper, but if one is challenging programming, we are remembering horrific things, and stopping horrendous feelings and urges to suicide. The ways of torturing us with intense physical, psychological, sexual and emotional pain, and with deep moral issues means we have to be strong. We need to have tough minds and hearts, an awareness of what the programming constitutes so that it is known and therefore can be pulled apart; and to seek support especially with counsellors and fellow survivors who are dealing with and/or have dealt with programming.
Deprogramming does not happen overnight. It took me nearly fifteen years to get to the point where I can write about deprogramming from AGOCMP. Deprogramming is also not linear. Sometimes you can be stuck for a month working on a program, and other days it is easy to undo them. There are also no tricks or easy ways. Do not use the code names, or any other perpetrator language, to undo it, as the personalities understandably think that you, or the person saying them, are perpetrators.
There are very few counsellors anywhere who know how to deprogram specifically. There is also no course or conference etc that has ever educated particularly about deprogramming. The reasons for this are that not many people have written down what the process constitutes. People, especially survivors and counsellors, know what the process entails, but are more inclined to get on with it, rather than write it down. I’m writing it down because I don’t want people to feel alone with it. I also think it’s important to not see programming as complicated, technical, "over there", “too difficult” etc, and, instead, to simplify it. It is basically a method of control where you have been tortured and tricked into submission. Every child and adult, AGOCMP survivor or not, is programmed to be "a good member of society" and uphold exploitative private enterprise capitalism; and trauma and trickery are abused in that process too. The nightly news is intended to horrify people and make people feel “gratitude that our companies, government and nation look after us”. With AGOCMP, what is different is that the torture and trickery are extreme, is particularly personal, and abuses dissociation and the development of multiple personalities. At our core we are tortured so much that a personality is deliberately formed and this fundamental personality is tricked into loyalty and submission. This personality is also deliberately non conscious to us. Therefore a handler controls us by controlling a separated, yet fundamentally set personality, who is deliberately not conscious to us. Therefore to deprogram means to be aware of this personality or group of personalities, and stop the loyalty to an outside perpetrator.
A workable definition of ‘being deprogrammed’ is ‘not being deployed, accessed or abused in any way; and restoring oneself to a natural state, or a state which is not harmful to oneself or another’.
It is also important to explain that there is no one specific way, or even many specific ways, to deprogram. People work out what’s best for them. There are many ways that are common to survivors and these have been described here.  There are also no specific stages. Deprogramming is about alleviating or taking away the programming depending upon what your immediate and long term needs and wants are. The emphasis is upon developing strategies to deal with the situation. For example, when a victim/survivor feels that s/he maybe accessed, it is important to be conscious of what the victim/survivor is going to do in the time when the accessing is thought to happen. If stress will happen because there will be no contact, it is important therefore to deal with the stress. The stress in itself is a good indicator that accessing or deployment may happen. If looking at deprogramming the whole thing, it is important to look at the whole programming “system”, and how far into the whole deprogramming you have come. See what is needed further to be undone. The current and long term needs will be the guide to what, when and how you deprogram.

Basic Considerations of Deprogramming
There are very important basic considerations in deprogramming. It is beneficial to have these either before one starts and/or during the process. I’m writing ‘one’ or ‘you’ as it’s easier than writing ‘the survivor/victim’ all the time. If this is triggering, copy and paste the information and replace ‘one’ or ‘you’ with ‘you’ or any other way that suits you. Also remember that you don’t need to be perfect. You can have as many goes as you want in order to practice these. Make deprogramming on *your* time schedule, not theirs.

An Unaffected, Free Space
Firstly, one needs an unaffected personal space in one's mind. One needs to be in a personal space that is relatively free from the organization's affects. This is to see the world from a relatively untouched view or stance. This is important firstly for a reference point. Generally, and in times of stress, one needs to have somewhere to come back to that is theirs. This is a safe space inside oneself; similar to what you experience being in a safe space such as a counsellor’s office where one can be oneself. Imagine a place that is lovely and nurturing where you have been before. That is not organization affected. You may want to draw or paint it. You may find it in a place in your home, in your garden or somewhere you feel safe. The space is also important for rationality. From this space you can question programming to see if it makes sense, is rational, is nurturing, etc. Programming is not sensible, rational or nurturing. It is about the abuse of you and other victims. The space also has some sense of objectivity to look clearly at whether something wrong is happening. If you are ever in trouble with deprogramming, such as going around in circles, going nowhere, being repeated, or there is a "snag", etc, you can come back to this unaffected space. The most important thing is that you can separate yourself from the organization. You will be able to relate outside an organization context and mind set. You can relate to other survivors, friends, therapist, and the world generally, etc. It can also be your end point so when you unravel the programming there should only be this unaffected place.
We all have the ability to find and have this free space. The human spirit is indestructible. For example, people who have been in concentration camps for many years have come out with their lives and thinking intact. If in doubt that you have this free space, try the following exercises. A good exercise is to do something of your own free will which the organisation has stopped you from before. This could be surfing the net on AGOMCP, talking to your counsellor about AGOMCP, staying inside on a day you think you maybe accessed so that you don’t ring from a public phone, etc. Other ways of finding this inner peaceful place in your soul and mind are: a bath, going for a walk, meditation, painting, and holding onto something from a teddy bear to a rock, etc. Do things in your current age e.g. study, work, hobbies, etc. From this beginning, you can then strengthen this safe space simply by doing more of it and being creative. By simply reading this you, are breaking organization rules to “not know about AGOMCP”.

 Being In Your Current Age
It is really important to be in your current age. The trauma is really now a memory of an earlier time and age. The importance also of being in your current age is that you can use your current age’s abilities, knowledge and power this age has. Most of the underlying trauma happened as a child when we didn’t have fully developed intellectual and physical abilities. We couldn’t see the trickery clearly, and we weren’t strong enough to run or physically stop the perpetrators.  Most importantly we didn’t have the power to escape. We were forced to be tied to perpetrators in the family basically because we were children with little rights, were not believed, could not run away and look after ourselves, etc. Now in our current age, whether it be 17 or 60, we do have more developed abilities and knowledge, and have rights and can get support outside of the perpetrators within the family. I’ve found being in my current age is the best way to cope with programming. The memories and commands simply don’t exist as it is past and in personalities who don’t have to be out. It’s like instant relief.

Consciousness
A major aspect of deprogramming is consciousness. Every victim/survivor and counsellor continually stresses the importance of consciousness. Consciousness is being aware of the abuse, of the programming and its different aspects, specific personalities and the roles and tasks, etc. Consciousness means looking for, and getting, the truth.  Consciousness also means having knowledge of what the programming constitutes, and the ability to act on this knowledge. To obtain consciousness at any given moment is to be like in meditation and be mindful of what is around and inside you right now. To find it, simply close your eyes or concentrate on something so that you feel like you’re in the present. What will also happen is that personalities within you will want to speak or clamour or hide, etc. and so continue to go past this in order to obtain that unaffected space. Awareness of personalities is important, but for the moment aim for a quiet mind as much as possible.  The term coconsciousness is consciousness between parts, and with the parts and yourself. Consciousness is also the exact reversal of what the perpetrators want i.e. no consciousness or not knowing about the programming and abuse. Consciousness is a slap in the face for perpetrators. With each conscious awareness we see the truth, and which, in turn, opens up more truths. Wanting consciousness also fulfils the deeper wants of self understanding and an independent and clear mind. This means freedom from the perpetrators. Getting consciousness happens with getting memory, by dialoguing with parts, by getting feedback from friends, therapist, etc and by using rationality and intuition.

Knowing Yourself
Another aspect that victims/survivors see as very important is knowing yourself. Even though this might seem difficult at the beginning of deprogramming, there must be some sense of knowing yourself in order to be able to even look at whether you are being abused or not. For example, in order to come to this webpage and look for information about Australian government mind control, there must have been some knowledge of yourself. As survivorship progresses, you come to know yourself more and have more confidence.
Knowing yourself means understanding that you didn’t want to be part of their evil. This also means understanding what is good or bad. If you wanted to do harm or do harm today, you wouldn’t be looking up information on Australian government mind control.  Knowing yourself also means trusting aspects of yourself such as your intelligence, your rationality, your intuition, etc. It means knowing psychologically who you are in terms of having many personalities, of switching between them, of being to do talk with them, in knowing that personalities are also you, etc. In knowing and accepting yourself, you can see what is programming. You can see how inner people have been tortured, lied, tricked and coerced into doing things that, if they had the choice today, would not have done before. Knowledge of yourself therefore also means caring for yourself.

Coping With Trauma
Deprogramming is also basically coping with traumatic memory. Programming has its “power” from the trauma you were subjected to. This is what basically you are reacting to. The lies and tricks of the perpetrators rest on “saving” you somehow from the trauma or from another perpetrator. Coping with trauma needs an awareness that it happened before and, most often, many years ago. It is not happening now. To stop or ease programming needs this awareness and sometimes we need to work hard at keeping this awareness. Use things that keep you in the present such as looking at what’s going on around you, having a bath, going for a walk, etc. Things that keep you grounded and in this day and time. Deprogramming like this is sitting through the pain of the memory and waiting for it to go.  

Seeing the Whole Picture.
An important phrase with multiple personality survivors is “When I see that I am multiple, then I am one”. In other words, you have gone further than being in one personality and seeing from his/her angle. You can see the whole lot of the personalities and therefore see much of the whole person. It is very important to see a lot of yourself. For multiple personality survivors, if you are in one personality or swapping between personalities then you can lose track of the whole picture. There could be a “hidden” personality or personalities who is/are being abused. You could lose track of the whole picture and of time as there could be another personality who is directing things. It is important to look for and address all of your personalities. You need to look after all of them. Don’t cause or continue any conflict. Give each part an equal reward and thanks in working on the programming. Sometimes you need to step back and imagine your whole self. Listen for all of the parts speaking. Personalities can give you information about the abuse and escape. Ask parts if they think you are being accessed, if there are callbacks, if there has been any reprogramming, etc. Try to picture your whole self. It may seem like Swiss cheese as there are holes in the programming. These holes maybe of parts forced to be accessed and unable to speak as yet. There maybe parts whose role it is to stop you from getting the truth. Use your intuition to feel whether you have been told the truth. Also do not condemn personalities. They were tortured and lied to and just need to be cared for.
Care for all of yourself and which includes every part. You need to look after and care for your whole self. Parts with lies have only been lied to. They are not born liars. They could be led to believe that they should lie in order to “help you" or conversely that you “had done badly”. They were split off from you originally and in reality are you. They have been twisted around to suit the perpetrators. You need to reclaim you for you, and stop the handler’s lies and contamination. Your parts only lie because this is what they have been told to do. They would not do it ordinarily. Caring for them means listening to the part’s lies, not accepting the lies, and explaining things in a non judgmental way. They need to know it is the despicable organisation's fault. It means stopping the violence and lies done to them, and in reality, you too. You underneath are really these parts. With parts that were created when you were a young person, it is important to understand your age at which they were done and care accordingly. This means extra deserving attention, doing appropriate caring things such as singing songs for very young personalities etc. Caring for the whole of yourself also means being in the present, and looking after your current age self. It means going for walks, eating healthy food, having good accommodation, etc. You are looking after all of you.

We are People
It is important to remember that we are people in the deprogramming. Sometimes we may forget that we are not robots or zombies, and which the organization would despicably like us to believe. When deprogramming, remember that personalities are people with feelings and have levels of understanding and knowledge. We need to look after them. Also feelings by themselves are not a safe and reliable guide. In deprogramming a lot of feelings come up. The organisation abuses feelings a lot. Feelings are just feelings. They have no sense of truth or insight and can be manipulated. I was lied to so much that my “Mum was a perpetrator”. The organization produced a feeling of hatred by Me towards Mum. It was based on a lie and now I am angry at the organisation for lying and which is a more truthful emotion. Real feelings are determined by a much larger truth. Even though feelings are not a reliable guide, we need to respect manipulated personalities and ones self. It is not our personalities’ fault that we are lied to, and so we need to be gentle in explaining to personalities and ones self that we have been lied to.

Memories Come Up When They Can
Memories of when the programming was done come up when deprogramming. This happens as you want to get rid of the programming and the underlying violence and lies. It is important to respect that you are bringing up memories when you can. You can work on them when you can. In times of stress such as first remembering the abuse and at call back times, you maybe flooded with memories. To try and understand things you may wish to bring back too much. If panicking and memory is flooding back, ask yourself why. Is it because of accessing? A callback for deployment? etc. When the programming is understood it makes things easier. E.g. the fear and dread felt on Saturday afternoon is because there is accessing then? One needs to respect ones abilities in dealing with memory. Too much memory can mean flooding, psychotic episodes and hospitalization. You need to say that you can only deal with so much and go into program management (see following). Memories of when the programming was done come up when they can. It is important to respect that you are bringing up memories when you can. You can work on them then. In times of stress such as first remembering the abuse and at call back times, you maybe flooded with memories. You wish to bring back too much to stop accessing. Now you need to also respect your abilities in dealing with too much memory. You need to say that you can only deal with so much and go into program management.

Trusting Yourself
The organization and its programming methods of setups and electrocution etc where/are real. You can go back into these real memories and undo it. Sometimes the organisation will lie on purpose such as abusing 3D images which were said to be “your family dying”, etc. Again it is important to see what the reality was. There were 3D images and organisation members acting as family, etc. You can stop the 3D images by turning off the screen. You can stop the perpetrators acting by doing something that turns them off e.g. turning off the lights in the memory.  If your real family was there ask them if they know if you are present and where they/s/he think you are e.g. outside, etc. The perpetrator/s and their/its programming methods with setups and electrocution etc where/are real. You can go back into the memories and undo it. You can also put them aside. You have the ability to control the programming.

Care for all of yourself which includes every personality
You need to look after and care for your whole self which includes every part. Personality parts have only been lied to that “you are bad”, and some are led to believe that they are "doing good for you because you are bad". Caring for them means listening to the parts’ lies and not accepting them, explaining things in a non judgemental way and how it is the despicable perpetrator’s fault, stopping the violence done to you and being firm. With parts that were created when you were a young person it is important to understand your age at which they were done and care accordingly. This means extra deserving attention, eating the appropriate foods e.g. baby foods, singing songs etc. Caring for yourself also means in the general day to day sense. This means going for walks, eating healthy food, having good accommodation, etc. You are looking after all of you.

Having a Strategy
First of all it is important to have a conscious strategy when deprogramming either as coping or undoing. You are deprogramming for a very good reason and it is helpful to be conscious and control it. Ask why am I deprogramming? Why am I needing to react and get anxious? What is the reality? How can the perpetrator get me or not get me? I am safe, etc. What is my support such as therapists, friends, support groups, etc. Is it to cope with a short term crisis? If so, go into short term looking after yourself. Forget about undoing the programming. Lots of pampering, lots of being with friends, lots of talking to the therapist, getting out or sleeping - whatever you enjoy and tides you over. Is it to understand myself better and get rid of the despicable perpetrator garbage and it is not a stress time? Then undo the programming. The important consideration is how safe you feel, and to keep on asking how safe you really are, and deprogram accordingly.

Program Management
All of these tools are concerned with programming management or how to live your life with programming under reasonable control. Discipline, living in your current age, understanding what the fear and anxiety is that lies behind the deprogramming, etc can be very important in this. The panic to deprogram, particularly at call back and disclosure times, comes from the lie "that you or someone close to you will die". This is not the case. In the seven years that I have been surviving and from meeting two hundred other survivors NO ONE has died. You can discipline one/yourself with this truth and say "this is a lie and programming. I will not go into it." Sometimes discipline can seem too difficult and as normal human beings we are not perfect and can "do the best we can". This means having a "bum day" and not feeling bad, and pride ourselves on not being the "best survivor". We/you didn’t want the programming in the first place, so why should we also have to have extra stress on being perfect?

Articulating the programming
This means getting an understanding of it, and whether it be the whole thing, a specific area, etc. Write down what is happening in the deprogramming or what you see in the programming. Allow all the words to come up and put then in some order if you want. See if you are going around in circles and not shifting or if new areas opening up, etc. It’s also good to draw what you see whether it be the torture memory. Or an image of the programming ‘system” or a part’s problems and fears, etc. Articulating the programming and deprogramming is important in that you have something concrete in front of you to refer to. Even if it is confused, it shows how the programming is constructed and you can work out ways of undoing it.

Getting the Facts
It is very important to get the facts and the reality when deprogramming. The organisation abuses fiendish hypnosis, drugs, death threats, electrocution, etc to force and delude you into thinking something else. A common one is that "your brother/sister died". In fact, it could be an organisation member masquerading as "your brother/sister". They, either your real brother/sister or the organisation member, did not die. Another delusion you may be forced to think is that you "are ringing the organisation at such and such a time". You need to check whether this is the case or not by knowing where you were at the time. You could be ringing but at a different time. Also ask why do I have this message from the organisation? Why is the organisation trying to deceive me? Is it because I am being accessed, but not at the time they specify? There quite definitely could be recent accessing. As said before, feelings are not a safe and reliable guide. Develop and trust your rationality, the facts, intuition, etc.

A Humanitarian and Normal Approach
Before explaining the specific ways of deprogramming, and within the aim of demystifying it, it is important to approach deprogramming from humanitarian and normal perspectives. This is important for the victim/survivor because we are deceived into thinking that we are robots and are very different from normal people. For victims/survivors and supporters it is important to address our humanity. We breathe, eat, wash, enjoy music, films, travelling, etc and as with survivors of other forms of abuse basically need the good and beneficial things in life to deprogram. We need a clear and independent mind, intelligent information and stimulation, good physical exercise, good recreation, good food, good sex, good health, etc. We need healthy emotions and the ability to release trauma and pain. Looking after yourself means being a model for the personalities. They can see that the general you is looking after yourself through good food and exercise, and so will see that they also can benefit as well from these.
When dialoguing with parts it is important to be aware of the parts age and his/her intellectual and physical abilities. Suggest ways of undoing trauma, lies and escaping that fit in with their age and abilities. Some victims/survivors refer to their programming as “the system” and also call the parts by the code names the perpetrators called them. Common names are generally public known ones such as Rambo, Bart as in Simpson, Mickey Mouse, etc. They call them this because this is what they know and/or to reclaim the words for themselves. I prefer not to do either as it reinforces the programming for my parts. I don’t call  “the system” anything. I see myself as having many parts. Some are controlled by the perpetrator, and some are by me.  I also don’t call parts code names it is only reinforcing the programming and these are not their names anyway. I allow them to call themselves what they want.
In reality, dissociated parts are really you. This doesn’t feel like it as they seem to be acting against your wishes. But they are in fact in your body and mind. What is specific about programming is that parts are controlled by a perpetrator, and so therefore the victim/survivor needs to reclaim them, and which is, in fact, reclaiming yourself. The worst thing to do is see them as alien to you or like they’ve “invaded your mind from outside”. They were separated from you by trauma and then deceived. So therefore they are you. A good comparison is to see parts as like wayward children of good parents. Children can be deceived that their parents are wrong or not normal or not caring, etc by other children or society generally. As with looking after these children, it is good to parent personalities, particularly young ones, and show real love and care. Eventually they will see that you, like parents of wayward children, are good and will see that perpetrators are horrible and return or become associated.
Remember that all parts are really really good. Never criticise a part. It’s like treating children as naughty and to get info “out of them” which they believe is not good to tell you because you will be killed. Always look after and respect them. Always respect promises made to them. Show them that you will not put them in a harmful situation. Let them act out with no serious harm if it takes the pressure off.

Demystifying it
It is important firstly to demystify programming and deprogramming. Many people have the impression that it is some very complicated and technological thing that is beyond understanding. Programming is really about setting up an abusive mind set and doing bad training which happens generally such as at schools, the army, the workplace, etc. For example, in the army, the mind set is one of total discipline and extreme patriotism. The training is to do tasks that fulfill these. The abuse happens in the inhuman training, and in the delusion of “serving totally, including dying, for ones country’. Deprogramming here is becoming aware that the soldier has been brainwashed into specific behaviour and thinking that doesn’t benefit him, and then detraining her/himself so that s/he doesn’t have to behave and think like this anymore. Obviously, it also means leaving the army.
How programming differs is that the programming process and training is extremely traumatic, done very quickly and “leaves no signs”. It can also abuse young children and babies. It is also illegal, done very secretly and abuses dissociation and split personality development and having many personalities. The mind control is also very robotic in its operation with cueing, coded language, etc. The last major difference is that the victim has no consciousness of the abuse. However, fundamentally it is the same as a working class child being programmed to be a worker with bad schooling, alarm clock cues to go to work, and little information around him/her to understand the socio- economic exploitation.
As with all conditioning, programming runs out after a while. Again, like any conditioning it gets lessened, particularly with no contact. Perpetrators actually reprogram to try and reinforce the original programming. If this stops then the programming lessens in intensity. It doesn’t go away completely, but it does not seriously affect as before. Programming gets lesser in its intensity, unless there is a program built in to continue it which is common and needs to be addressed as with all personality parts. As with healing all problems and emotional stress, there is a lessening in the effects of the violence and the lies.

Coping With and Undoing the Programming
Deprogramming is when you don’t allow the programmed and cued behaviours or system to work. When you don’t respond to programmed demands. There are two main aspects to deprogramming. You either cope with it and not allow it to happen, or you undo it so that it can’t happen again. Coping is when managing the programming so that you doesn’t do as the organisation and handler demand. You cope with the pain and lies and are not drawn into doing what the organisation and handler want. For example, not going to a ritual abuse ceremony at Halloween. Undoing is when you deal specifically with the programming and go into the memory of the programming torture and lies and stops it at its source. Coping does not mean stopping the programming at its source, and it can occur again. This is ok for the present. You have stopped the command and for the time being this is ok. Undoing means stopping it altogether so that it will not affect you again.

Coping We cope or undo depending on how much energy and time we have. During a callback, we are more stressed and more inclined to cope. During easier times, between callbacks, there is more time and energy to work on the torture and lies of the programming, and therefore, stop it at its source. Deprogramming is natural, and victims/survivors continue doing it until the programming does not have any power. We are naturally getting rid of programming as it is lies and torture and our psyches do not want horrible things. We will try and get rid of control and unpleasantness within us. We were born good, and so we will naturally get rid of anything horrible in ourselves. Even before knowing you are a survivor/victim, getting rid of programming can sometimes be subconscious to you, and all you know is that you are in a lot of pain. You can be lying awake at night not knowing that the blackness you feel is actually memory of programming or the organisation’s activities. Even as a survivor/victim you maybe be depressed and under the organisation delusion that “nothing is wrong”. In fact you are still being accessed and deployed, but tricked at a very deep level that you “are safe and not being abused”. This happened to me for about six years and then realized that I was still being abused.
The organisation has to continually reprogram in order to ensure that the programming remains. If we were to completely stop contact with the organisation and handler the programming will run out by itself. As a conscious survivor we can be more aware of the programming and if we are also being currently reprogrammed. Being aware of programming, we can understand it more clearly, and stop it more effectively.
Choosing to cope or undo the programming usually depends on the degree of the programming, your normal day to day life, your responsibilities, awareness of how much you are being abused, and how much support you have. It basically boils down to how much energy and time has. When there is time, energy and even support for undoing programming you will undo it. When there is only energy and time for coping with programming, then you cope. Also a survivor in the initial stages of recovery also knows less about the programming. When understanding what it is you can stop it better.
Coping usually happens when there is a lot of stress such as with callbacks and disclosure. For example, the programming behaviour to self harm comes on horribly as the cue of disclosure is set off. There is usually too much pain to go into the memory and stop it at its source. It’s best to cope especially in stopping memory flooding. Coping is basically taking your mind off the programming behaviours. To put the harmful thoughts aside and concentrate on something else. If you take your mind off the programming and do something else you have stopped the programming from having its effects. Even concentrating on cooking dinner will take your mind from programming.
If it is too overwhelming do not be tempted to go back to the violence and torture of the programming setup. See it as a memory and back in 1962, 1983, 1998, etc. It is a different year now. Be in your current age and know what day, month and year it is. This is especially very important for young parts who are very scared. Being in your current age person is especially important for younger parts as they know then that an adult survivor is in control.

Undoing the Programming
Undoing means going back to where the programs were put into place and stopping the violence and lies so that you will never be affected again. This means doing a kind of "rewind of a video" in your memory and controlling how you will get rid of the violence and the real perpetrators and free yourself from the lies and binds (sometimes double or more binds). Use whatever techniques you want in this. This was violence that you had no control over then. Now you can and do whatever you wants. Its best to undo programming when there are periods of less stress such as between callbacks, but if you need to undo programming in order to stop the organisation such as stopping accessing, and you have the time and energy, then this can be done. Deprogramming is basically going back to where the lies were put in with extremely violent torture. This generally means bringing yourself back to a more grounded way of being. In psychological/ medical terms it is "associating the experience". You was forced to dissociate or float off and space out in order to cope with the despicable horror of what the organisation did to you. With a lot of dissociation comes the formation of a separate personality part. (Please see the following multiplicity and personality parts). Some methods are child rapes, spinning machinery, electrocution, deprivation of food, hanging upside down, moving the person towards a revolving saw, putting a knife in your throat, suspending them in air by a cage or a harness, etc. They also all involve drugs and hypnosis. The organisation then further abuses this dissociation and personality part development by tricking the part into a lie that they "owe the organisation". A handler lies that s/he was not aware of the torture and pretends that s/he is “saving” you. The victim is caught between a horrible life/death scenario or be “saved” by this devious and deceitful handler.
When rewinding the video it is important to remember all the aspects of the programming. Where you were put, what images they were abusing, where are the perpetrators and how the handler is also one of the perpetrators. You could be put in front of a tv screen, or in a staged play in an auditorium, have your head dunked at a river, be suspended in a cage, etc. The perpetrators will play out a scenario that set ups a life/death situation.
These usually involve friends and family and are called the “loved ones”. They could be there in person or fabricated as such. If there in person the friends and family can be programmed so that aren’t aware of where they are and are innocent. If they know that they are there they are perpetrators. In my programming my mum, brother, sister in law and nephew were all non consciously programmed and didn’t know they were being put into this scenario. The father knew and is a perpetrator. The friends and family can also be fabricated by being on screen images or perpetrators acting them in a staged play. The friends and family are not there at all and the organisation uses fabricated versions.
The scenario is a setup where you have no choice but to harm/kill. The only other “option’ and which isn’t an option is that you will die. You have the right to save yourself as it is self defence. This is morally and legally fine. If someone is “killed” then it is because you have the moral and legal right to do so. You have the right to protect yourself. You also have the right to stop the programming scenario. You can take away the cords to the television and turn off the screen, you can bring yourself down from the suspended cage and you can stop yourself being drowned. Use your imagination in stopping these. E.g. you can call in a tractor to lower the cage, call in the police or someone who is protective to stop the drowning, etc. When the handler lies that “s/he saved you” you can be angry at her and call her a liar. He or she is just another of the perpetrators who knew and organized the setup in the first place. He or she is a not a “saviour”. You can tell him/her angrily to get away and say no to his/her lies. It’s all a setup and you have every right to stop this horrible memory. You did not want to be at the programming setup and it was all a setup in any case.

Dialoguing with parts
A lot of deprogramming is talking with parts. This may sound crazy but it isn’t. Parts know what the torture and lies are, or can you information where your adult current self can work out what the torture and lies are. Parts will talk to or with you or you can talk with them. After a while it becomes second nature to have a dialogue with one or even many parts. You can also do it out loud if you want. It’s not crazy. You’re not in a psych ward because you know where you are. Important considerations are in respecting the part and also their age in terms of their abilities, knowledge and world view. As said before, listen to the part, even his/her lies. They didn’t realise they were lies, or if they do they are saying them for a good reason to them. Explain things in a non judgemental way and how it is always the despicable perpetrator’s fault. With parts that were created when you were a young person it is important to understand your age at which they were done and care accordingly. This means extra deserving attention, eating the appropriate foods e.g. baby foods, singing songs etc.

Immersion and Staying Outside
Immersion is going into the programming to understand how it functions. Staying outside is observing it from a distance. Both are important and you need to develop both and use them together in order to work through the programming. For example, you need to delve to feel the emotions, understand the personality parts etc, and then to step back from them to get a perspective on what happens and what are lies etc. The immersion is the subjective- experiencing the personal, the memories, the mind, the intricacies of the programming, etc. When doing this you can rewind the "vcr" of the memories and tell off the perpetrators. Staying outside is the objective- the rational, the logical, the analysis of what is lies and truth, etc. It is where you can be disciplined and not allow the junk and lies to come in.

Opposite to Programming
We can also approach deprogramming by what it constitutes, and do the reverse. The perpetrators wanted/wants a victim who casually goes about their life oblivious to being abused. You had/have non conscious personalities who dislike the host victim, and won't tell you about the abuse or anyone else, such as a counsellor or policeperson. These personalities were mainly formed when the victim was a child and so tends to view the world from a child like stance. The personalities were also trained to be robotic and have black and white views of the world. The personality worked hard for an external perpetrator, who tortured and tricked the personality, and is now their, and your, puppeteer. The perpetrator basically orders her/him/them to do a lot of mainly illegal work, or s/he/them must suicide. All the personalities must follow the perpetrator or commit suicide, and this includes those who must keep other personalities in line by beating them up or yelling horribly at them.
Therefore to see deprogramming from a contrary view, we firstly need to be conscious of what the programming is doing. What do the personalities have to do maintain the programming? to work for the perpetrators? to react if we are deprogramming? etc. We can observe what is happening, ask personalities what is happening, think over the programming, etc. The aim is to get some consciousness about it. To shine a light on what is happening when we are amnesic, asleep, awake, etc. The perpetrators really do not want awareness. They spent years developing this type of mind control in order that victims do not realise that we/they are exploited. Talking respectfully with personalities is a great way to know what is going on and stop the abuse. The main aim with awareness is to reveal the truth about the programming.
Meditation is a good way of searching for what the programming is about. Meditation is also called mindfulness as it aims to see what is happening in the mind. In deprogramming, meditation usually means personalities will ‘pop up’ in the form of the perpetrators’ faces and bodies that produced them. We can talk with these personalities or observe them, and see if they are programmed to cause trouble. We can also notice other personalities and see what the relationships are between them. Through observing, and even talking with, personalities we can gain knowledge of what the system is and not buy into it.
Because programming is mostly started when victims are very young, it is important to reverse this by being in your current age (the age you are currently). Even victims indoctrinated when an as an adult or teenager can benefit from this as your current age means now and not the time back when you were first kidnapped. Your current age brings firstly an adult viewpoint which is very important in being objective, compassionate, empathetic, parenting and mature. Young parts especially will benefit from these approaches. Good parenting is necessary when deprogramming. As written before, victims/survivors programmed from when we were very young, mostly have baby and child parts and need good parenting. We need to be extra compassionate and empathetic in looking after very vulnerable and scared people, clarifying what is not good and how the programming is lies, and then providing a wholesome and nurturing environment instead of horribleness.
Programming is also about abusing one or two very tortured and tricked personalities. Perpetrators especially abuse single personalities who are lonely and terrified. When we take an approach that is holistic, unified and inclusive, we can help the frightened parts and show them they are not alone. We can foster internal talking between personalities for truly good reasons such as escaping the perpetrators, instead of personalities hounding others and making them act out programming. Also we can be flexible, and reject the rigid, and black or white thinking, of programming. We can practice as much as we want. Don’t have to be perfect, nor a robot.
These are general and summarised ways in which you need in deprogramming. Being rational- does this makes sense?; use intuition- does this feel right?; getting feedback from personalities particularly those that are not part of a program of a specific personality you maybe working on, and from others such as friends and a therapist; being flexible; being eclectic or using all/many strategies; being sensible- e.g. is flying off a bridge really going to set you free- the reality is that it will kill you; being clear and most importantly loving yourself. For survivors- you suffered some of the most horrific and despicable crimes against humanity. The true and real love of yourself is what has kept you both alive and doing the deprogramming so that you have a better life. Cherish this.
 Conscious, associated Present age
Put simply: deprogramming is looking for and finding the truth, and undoing the lies and torture. We all have an innate truth or knowing what is true. The truth for us is in knowing what the programming actually is particularly its lies. It is knowing whether you are being accessed, and whether you are being deployed. This truth comes from seeing what is around you – the facts, from your intuition – does this feel right, and from your sensibilities- does this makes sense. It also comes from feedback from people truly close to you like your counsellor, other survivors and friends. Programming is basically lies and there are many of them. The first is that perpetrators are “your friends, your counsellor, etc”, the second is that they are “helping you” against another perpetrator which can be an earlier perpetrator, a perpetrator in competition with them or a “perpetrator” they are actually friends with, or an innocent but gullible family person, etc. PERPETRATORS ARE NEVER FRIENDS OR COUNSELLORS. It cannot be put more simply. NOR ARE THEY EVER HELPING YOU. Again this cannot be more emphasised. A victim/survivor needs to look at the truth. If a perpetrator is “helping you” why is there a program to kill yourself? This is the most UNHELPFUL thing ever! No matter what you feel happened, tricking you to commit suicide is NOT HELPFUL WHATSOEVER. You don’t want to be part of something horrible, didn’t want it in the first place and don’t want to die because of their lies. It is they that abused you and you don’t want it anymore.

Undoing the lies and torture  Undoing lies mainly involves talking with parts that have the lies. You can explain what is a lie and show them. For example, a lie can be found when seeing how can a perpetrator be helpful if they want you dead? Most dialoguing is within littlies who can see injustice clearly so once they see that it is a lie they can understand and change and get angry. It is important to not be judgemental. Littlies, really yourself when younger were fooled and tortured into this lie. Once you can see fully that it is a lie, then you need to get rid of the programming altogether by getting rid of the memory of the torture. Whatever was abused can be undone. For example, if you are strapped to a table, undo the straps by calling on real friends or a true therapist or have your own imaginary friends undo them. You can also have an imaginary knife to cut the straps, but not yourself.
 You may also see their faces, either in their natural state or with makeup costumes, wigs, etc. You may then get memories of the torture such as being placed on a table with people with masks torturing you with metallic instruments, electric prods, etc. You may also get memory of keywords which are in fact cues, etc. After a while you may get a picture of the whole scenario. One torturer physically torturing you while another perpetrator “saves” you, etc.  These memories, while hard to deal with are important to get. Once you see what the memory is, you can then work on it.

Basic Tools
These are summarised ways which you can help in deprogramming:
Being rational- does this makes sense? – going to a public space every Sunday morning does not make sense (in reality being accessed because you subconsciously ring a perpetrator at a public telephone);
Use intuition- this doesn’t feel right – being in an unknown area late at night (in reality being directed to go somewhere to be reprogrammed);
Getting feedback both internally from personalities and from others such as friends and a therapist;
Being flexible.
Being eclectic or using all/many techniques;
Being sensible. E.g. is jumping off a bridge really going to set you free? The reality is that it will kill you;
Being clear – are things very confusing? This could be that the deprogramming is not working or that there is a personality who is afraid to speak because of a hold by the handler.
Most importantly - loving yourself. As survivors we suffered some of the most horrific and despicable crimes against oneself. The true and real love of ones self is what has kept us alive and doing the deprogramming. This is so that we have a better life. Cherish this.

Loose Stages of Deprogramming
As written before, there are no precise stages of deprogramming, but there are loose ones that happen with most survivors, and which make sense when seen in their progress.

First challenges
 The first stages are when you are becoming aware that you have been abused. This can be direct in having past memory/memories, having a good hunch that there was/is abuse and/or in knowing fully that you have been abused. The programming, intended to stop awareness, has not worked, and you have some consciousness of the abuse, even from an early age. You know that a family member or members are criminal, and you are wanting the first opportunity you can find to escape.
For other victims, who do not have awareness, and where the programming to ‘not know’ is working,  there are strange commands within yourself to “kill yourself”, “kill your child”, “kill your partner”, etc. For “killing yourself” “You must do this by jumping off a bridge”, “drive your car off the road”, “jump off at The Gap in Sydney”, etc. and for your family “you must use a knife”, etc. You don’t know why these commands are ‘turning on’, but the feelings and thoughts are definitely there.
The intensity of any, and all of the above, can sometimes drive a survivor to hospitalisation. Many, if not most, survivors end up in a psych ward/hospital because the strength of these thoughts has been too great. In reality, what has happened, is that you are challenging the programming either “to not remember” and/or “to return to the perpetrator” and/or “be deployed”, etc. What has kicked in are deliberately placed suicide programs so that you will never tell what happened, or intentional killing family programs so that you are put in prison, never released and become too guilt ridden to remember. The perpetrators want that you never know about the abuse and tell people. Another program that occurs when remembering is “you will go crazy”, and as it seems very astonishing that that this stuff exists, it seems ‘true’ that you ‘are crazy’, but in reality you aren’t. People, who do go mad, do not know they are so, and therefore you definitely are not mad or crazy.

Looking for validation
Most survivors when confronted with the “suicide/kill others” programming, desperately try to find what is causing these. Unfortunately, they can’t get accurate information from mental health professionals, who say that the “voices” are simply “poor mental health”, rather than real perpetrators trying to kill or silence them by programming. Nowadays, there is the internet with information on government mind control and programming, and counsellors with information about ritual abuse and related abuse such as child pornography. Both also abuse programming. (I also think that ritual abuse is part of the wider organisation’s list of abuses, rather than a separate and distinct form of abuse). For survivors, who allow memory to come up, and at the same time deprogram by not buying into the ‘suicide/kill others’ programming, we can have information that can be validated by the internet, a counsellor, or a support group such as for sexual assault survivors.

Coping Deprogramming
Further ‘suicide/kill others’ programming will arise as more memory reveals the abuse, and more deprogramming is needed by not buying into the commands. Coping with the programmed commands, is needed a lot in the initial stages of recovery. Some days it is all important to keep on stopping your mind from going overload. Baths, walks, grounding, seeing a counsellor, talking with friends, lying on the lounge, etc are necessary. You may also feel like you are in constant pain, find it difficult to do normal things, suffer from insomnia, etc. This is when it is essential to do self pampering from doing your nails, to looking at beautiful books and photos, to walking along the beach, to go online shopping, to whatever makes you feel good.
Also most survivors are usually being accessed and deployed when first in recovery, and so there is also the need to be safe from reprogramming and the perpetrators. As survivors/victims are accessed on a periodic basis, reprogrammed on a periodic basis, and constantly deployed in the organisations’ activities and ceremonies, there is a definite need to stop any contact. The programming system will still sit there with all of its names, cues and commands just as it did from when you were first programmed, and so it won’t simply disappear because you have realised you a victim/survivor. In fact the perpetrators are looking out if, and when, a victim/survivor realises s/he is a victim/survivor, and keeps contact with personalities most loyal to perpetrators. They force personalities to be reprogrammed so that total control will continue. This phase of awareness by victims/survivors is usually about two steps forward and one backwards, as the victim/survivor is escaping, getting support and coping with programming, but also being reaccessed and reprogrammed. Usually a victim/survivor has to go somewhere there are no perpetrators at all.

Escaping
Most victims/survivors I know have left the main area of their abuse in order to deprogram properly. The place is extremely triggering, and causes shutdowns in intelligence and healthy emotions, and means overall abuse. Also the main programmers and perpetrators in his/her .life, even from when s/he was born, are in this town/city/ area. They know the programming completely and have had total control. In order to maintain control by the organisation, they may “offer escape” where they really send you to another perpetrator in another town/city/area. This has happened to me on many occasions and I was fooled into thinking “I was escaping”. Another ploy to renew control used by perpetrators is for you to get roughed up by perpetrators or victims in the new place you’ve escaped to. The perpetrators lie that they “saved you” from being hurt by the perpetrators or victims. This happened to me when I escaped to Perth. The main programmer in Brisbane got a perpetrator in Perth to get a victim to start punching me and make it seem like “life in Perth was horrible”. Thankfully I realised this was a setup and worked on the accessing and stayed in Perth. I knew then that I had escaped. Perpetrators, especially the main programmer, will abuse any method to make them/s/he seem like the “good guy/s” and continue control. Escaping means that the survivor is not being accessed, especially by non conscious means where an unknown personality inside the survivor, still loyal to perpetrators, is ringing or contacting in some way with a perpetrator. If accessing is stopped, so is reprogramming, deployment and other aspects of control.

Stabilised Periods of Deprogramming
When the survivor has escaped, there will be stabilised periods of recovery, and one can deprogram by both coping and undoing the programming itself. One usually has to do the coping with the suicidal threats and threats to close people, especially with callback times with ritual abuse such as Beltane (May 1st) and Halloween (October 31st) for Satanic AGOCMP survivors, but also generally with contacting the perpetrators. With time you begins to understand the programming more clearly. For example you understand why the accessing programming is there and work on it to stop the accessing. You have also dealt with the pain and know how to battle it. The programming setups also emerge from memory, and you can see and understand what they are and why they were abused. You can work on them and stop the setups and lies. The falsities in programming usually are “your loved ones are there hurting you”, “you killed someone close to you”, “your loved ones are killing you”, or any other supposed scenario concerned with a partner, family, child, enemy, etc and deep ethical considerations. Because victims are drugged, hypnotised and extremely destabilized, it is very hard for them to see clearly and fight against the setups and lies, and so very sadly they truly think they have “murdered their mum”, etc. The reality is that the mum is very alive. When deprogramming these setups it is important to distance oneself from the drugging, hypnosis and destabilising. Drinking lots of fluid, especially water, clears the mind and you see clearly that “the mum” etc was a perpetrator stand in. Once this falsehood is revealed to the personality holding this trauma, the programming collapses.
When not being accessed and reprogrammed you can also work more freely on stopping the system from being abused. When being accessed, it can be very difficult for you as it feels like you are running against the clock. The accessing program (and the following reprogramming) is forcing him/her to return and she is battling this program. It is important to address the accessing program especially and either cope with it, or even better, to undo it. When not being accessed, reprogrammed and having no callbacks for organisation ceremonies and activities, there are long periods when you can address programming and also undo it.
After some time of adjustment to dealing with the programming, you works out ways of deprogramming that are second nature. Once adjusted to memory work, coping, etc, you isn’t so frantic and can approach deprogramming in a more stable way.
S/he will start to see the setups and be able to undo them. They will collapse like buildings and not be able to stand. You will also feel that the ropes, that controlled you like a puppeteer’s, will be cut and stopped.

Normalising Programming
Programming and deprogramming can be understood. Programming is never acceptable, but is similar to all indoctrination. Everyone is indoctrinated into something whether it be conditioning about class, gender, etc. These are also based on violence and lies. Working class men are conditioned to be aggressive by violent sports and lies that they are “powerful”. Working class women are conditioned by violence that they be “submissive”. AGOCMP programming is also a form of indoctrination and conditioning. It is on a societal continuum of indoctrination. As the criminality is extreme so is the indoctrination process. The organisation want victims that are totally controllable and completely do not know of the abuse. Victims are indoctrinated with horrific torture and lies, and forced to dissociate so that we do not know of the abuse.
As with any conditioning, programming also runs out after a while if not reprogrammed. Personalities will see that the handler and the organisation are all liars and torturers, and will not act out the behaviours. They will come over to your side when they understand this. The intensity of the violence and lies also lessens over time. The organisation will try and stop this natural process by reprogramming, and this is why you/victim especially needs to stop accessing. There can also be programs that are built in and which continue the programming within the person i.e. with no outside accessing, and this too needs to be addressed. Personalities are lied to that the victim/survivor is ‘the enemy’ and have to ‘rebuild the programming’ in order to ‘help’ the handler ‘maintain beneficial control’. The personalities have to see where there has been deprogramming, and “patch it up so it’s brand new”. Also when being accessed, the handler can threaten parts to “rebuild the system”. If they don’t do their job the handler will punish them. This is another reason to stop accessing.
As said deprogramming is natural. Ones psyche doesn’t like lies and horribleness being in ourselves and will do everything to discharge it. The organisation programming is one of the most evil things a criminal organization can do and so the mind and body will get rid of it naturally. As it is a particular type of horribleness, we need to address how it was placed there and address the specific concerns. These being the style abused such as a spinning machine, the enormity of the lies i.e. that “you killed someone”, “I (the handler) saved you” and “you must obey me and the organization at all costs”.
It’s also important to look at the important areas of the programming and do the opposite. The perpetrators, including the knowing and organising handler, force the victim to dissociate into a personality by various means e.g. drugging, electrocution, etc. It is therefore important to associate or ground oneself so that the dissociated part isn’t under their control by the means of dissociation. One needs to remove in ones memory anything that causes dissociation. It is then important to stop the lies. These are that “you wanted to kill someone”, that “you are evil”, that you are “one of them”, etc. The reality is that you didn’t want to kill but were forced to in order to save yourself. Saving youself in self defence, against someone murdering you or has been told is murdering you, is morally and legally correct. You needs to see the truth. This will also help with associating or bringing back the organisation controlled part back to you where s/he rightfully belongs. The lies that “you owe the organisation” or “we saved you” are shown again to be lies and you have control of yourself. You originally had this and you are simply getting rid of the torture and lies and being yourself again.

Variations
Each of us copes and undoes programming his/her own way. People have individual interests and strengths. Some people enjoy looking at psychology and how the mind works and go into the intricacies of brainwashing. Some people use the media and public education to get rid of their anger against the organisation and its programming. Other survivors see themselves as a community of personalities. There is no one or right way to deprogram.

A personality thinking that only the rest of the personalities will die
A survivor needs to consider an important aspect of programming and which can be very beneficial to know. A personality who is following orders from the handler and thinks that you should be dead also believes that s/he “will be saved when the person dies”. S/he is lied to by the handler that he/she/it "will live" after he/she/it kills off the victim. This is not the truth. When a person dies, god forbid, the whole person really dies which includes all of the personalities including the personality who “will be saved”. The personality needs to see that when s/he has seen dead bodies in the past the whole body dies and this is the same for the personality. The personality will die exactly the same as the other personalities. There is only one heart for the whole body. Each personality does not have an individual heart and mind. When seeing this the personality usually comes over to your side.

Disruption between personalities
Multiple victims/survivors have programming which deliberately abuses multiple personalities in you. By being multiple, the organisation thought it could have more parts "to play with" and attempt internal disruption. There are deliberate conflicts made between personalities. They can be based simply on what colour they are coded e.g. blue personalities versus red. Or the handlers can make one personality stop other personalities from seeing the truth. Deprogramming sometimes can be difficult when there is internal disruption. You allows the personality to say what the truth is and at the same time stopping a belligerent personality from causing conflict against another personality and the victim her/himself. Sometimes deprogramming means both addressing a personality and at the same time seeing the whole system. One part may have been lied to and which is contaminating the whole system. You needs to explain to the part lied to that there is a lie and reassure everyone else that you and the personality won’t accept the lie. It means looking after everyone.

When the perpetrator is a woman
The organisations/organisations have female perpetrators. They are conscious and deliberate perpetrators which will torture, program, revel in the ceremonies and be leaders of the organisations/organizations. Two of the organisations I was abused by were led by women and they were despicable, evil infested perpetrators. Most of the handlers who tortured and programmed me were women. I have a feeling women perpetrators abused the status of women to further inflict pain and mind control. We supposedly aren’t allowed to hit women, react against them and only feel sorry for them, but these perpetrators deserve the same resistance and stopping as any perpetrator. Fight back and kill off the woman perpetrator in the memory just like any perpetrator.

Crisis periods
Crisis periods are when we are forced to contact for accessing and deployment. There are demands to contact by either face to face, phone, etc, and on a certain day, date and hour, etc; or within a certain time period. Stress happens when we are counteracting and challenging the demands and the programming comes on with memories of the torture and the threats. The programming stress also comes on when we disclose or remember the abuse. The crisis period is fighting the memory of the horrible torturing and the threats and lies, and within a strict time period. For example, you maybe forced to ring on Sunday and you remember this on Thursday and so from Thursday to Sunday you are stressed to the max. On one side is the knowledge that you don’t have to ring – the “people” are horrible perpetrators who abuse you to do their dirty work. On the other are the horrible memories of torture and threats or really lies. So you become distraught. Also the parts that have the memory are usually young parts. They feel very vulnerable, are in lots of pain, and find it difficult to be rational, and to be talked with. You make it to Monday, the day after the “deadline” but there is also another backlash as you wait to see “if someone has died” which always turns out to be a lie. By Wednesday you can start to calm down again as the parts see that it was bullshit.
Deprogramming during a crisis period is fighting the pain and waiting for the period to finish. Short term strategies are really important. The most important thing is to look after yourself. Try to not go into the programming memories deeply unless you feel you can. Do whatever you can to stop the pain and cues, and which doesn’t hurt others or yourself badly. Try to be in the moment by breathing, meditating, going for walks, having a bath, swimming, simply resting, etc. Not buy into it and brush it off. Talking about it with whoever can listen - a therapist, survivors, friends, a telephone counselling service, etc. Get clarity and feedback if it helps. Express yourself and say how horrible the pain is. Go somewhere that has no people and scream, write it down, draw it, etc. Release the pain, the frustration, the anger, etc. Talk or dialogue with parts and reassure them that this period will ease. Let them express themselves about this period without causing harm to anyone especially them.

Call Back Stress Times
Call back times can be the most harrowing times for victims/survivors. The most important thing to remember is that it is only temporary. During this crisis period it is important to get all the support you can. Tell your friends, therapist, telephone crisis counsellor (e.g. Lifeline), etc that you want as much support as you can. This is your crisis period. Do whatever it takes to get you through the day and night. Whatever it takes to keep you safe and sane- scream, shout, ring Lifeline, have a bath, suck a dummy, etc. You did not choose to have this as with all organisation activities put upon you. You can now choose to cope and not allow the programming to affect you.
These are ways of coping from a ritual abuse survivor magazine from the 1990s in Australia called Beyond Survival.
Breathe. Breathe deeply and wriggle your toes. Rub your arms and legs. Blink hard. Keep eye contact with something such as your pet.
Make a list of your reasons NOT to kill yourself. Read it. Give a copy to your friends to read out to you when needed.
Be safe and warm. Put a blanket around you and cuddle a teddy bear. Hold onto your pet.
Make a list of things you can do to make you feel better: go out for dinner, have a bath, read a book, suck on a dummy, go for a walk. Whatever works or feels right for you.
Write in a journal.
Ring a friend.
Tell yourself that you are worth being loved. You are good.
Be proud of having survived. The fact that you are still alive after all the torture shows what an amazingly strong person you are.
Ring a crisis number and talk to them.

 Be angry at the perpetrators.
There are as many versions of this setup as there are situations which the perpetrators wanted to abuse you by. They could abuse specific family and friendship relationships e.g. a relationship with your nephew. They could abuse any physically and psychologically painful situation that their devious and murderous minds can imagine. The extremely important thing to see is that it is always a setup. An attempt to cause pain, particularly suicidal guilt in a seeming no win situation, and then exploit this pain to act as “saviours”. The perpetrators, especially the handler are not saviours. He or she is a devious and extremely harmful perpetrator. You did not want to be at the programming sessions, and have the right to say no to all the setups.  Look for the truth, and don’t go into the falsely made and incorrect feelings of the programs.

Overall or Long Term Deprogramming
Overall or long term deprogramming is addressing the “system” and undoing or dismantling it. It differs to crisis management in that its aim is to get rid of the programming altogether or to where it is manageable and controlled by you. During non crisis periods or when there is “slack’, the victim/survivor can deprogram more fully. Overall deprogramming is a natural process because we don’t want to have unnatural things such as programming in our minds and body.
Overall deprogramming firstly needs to have a strategy that is addressing the whole programming. This can mean looking at it as a whole or taking it apart bit by bit or both. As we generally are not aware of the whole programming, it usually means addressing personalities or major areas of personalities such as the accessing part of the system. It is usually the accessing parts that we address first as this stops control and creates better safety to continue the overall deprogramming.
Undoing programming means firstly understanding the personalities, their roles and tasks, and the area of their deployment. It then means going back to where the personalities and programs were put into place and stopping the violence and lies so that you will never be affected again. This means doing a kind of "rewind of a video" in your memory and controlling how you will get rid of the violence and the real perpetrators and free yourself from the lies and binds (sometimes double or more binds). Therefore a lot of this work involves doing traumatic memory work and getting clarity about what perpetrators were doing what during the programming process or session. The deception needs to be seen fully. When the deception is understand the lies, threats and supposed loyalty to the perpetrators is gotten rid of. Use whatever techniques you want in this. This was violence and deception that you had not control over then. Now you can and do whatever you want/s and get rid of the controlling memories.
The first major aspect is to remember the physical trauma such as being placed into suspended cages, in front of rotating blades, etc. Help the personality by suggesting ways s/he can escape from them and if wanted to get revenge. This involves using imagination such as becoming small in the cage and flying away. It can mean bringing in his/her own personal friends and beating up the perpetrators and untying him/her before the blades do damage. Suggest ways that the personality can escape or ask him/her how s/he could do it if s/he had any and every resource available to him/her.
The second aspect is to break the binds of deception. Explain to the part that all the perpetrators in the place whether there originally or coming in afterwards to “save you” are perpetrators. They all knew what was happening and they all set it up together. It was all a huge trick. Ask the personality to not buy into any of lies and refuse to sign or agree to contracts. The personality can then get angry at all the perpetrators.
The part may feel confused, disappointed, angry, etc after this undoing of the programming and revelation. Look after him/her and even explain more fully that it was all a trick in order to control him/her. Ask how s/he is feeling and what they would like to do to the perpetrators. Hopefully it will be anger. Allow the part to express the anger to the major perpetrator and/or to all the perpetrators. “Filthy” language is allowed.
Each part was produced by similar ways and so each part needs to be able to understand and discharge the emotion. A part could also be originally abused and then further abused and so each traumatic episode needs to be undone. Sometimes two or more parts together were abused in subsequent programming “sessions”.
This memory work leads to reassociating or integration back into the person, and stops the control and memories of the abuse.
The next aspect in the whole programming system is to address the areas and layers. The programming system was first produced as a predetermined structure by the organisation. It had specific stages of indoctrination that are generally called core and secondary/ tertiary/etc layers. For children this can start in the womb and for kidnapped people it starts at the age they were kidnapped. This is when there is a linear progression to programming. The core stages have particularly very heavy and continual torture. When working on dismantling the layers, you may go back to the core programming and work on the base layers. By working on base layers you can deflate a layer on top of this to a small degree. However, as programs are all about violence, you will still need to work on the upper layers. They are not simply put in without violence.
The other aspect are areas. Examples are the accessing areas, the assassination areas, etc. One needs to help the parts discharge and to explain to all the parts in the areas that they are abused and so do not have to follow orders of working together, or dobbing another rebellious part in, etc. By talking to parts in areas you can get some agreement that there is abuse and each will see that they do not have to be abused.
In undoing training, again an explanation that the part has been abused, will lead to them giving up roles and tasks. Use realism, for example, that they aren’t even being paid! Or that who really does get the benefits? Only perpetrators get benefits. Allow the parts to release their anger at the perpetrators.
Deprogramming, with dismantling the system, will become second nature over time. It is good to firstly try the discharging and memory work with a therapist or with another survivor or a trusted friend. Then after some practice and good results, it will become easier.
Remember, you cannot get a full understanding of accessing, or of programming, in one day. The programming took ages to put in and it can’t be removed in a day. Rome truly wasn’t built in a day. Respecting yourself and your parts is the best way to undo programming. I have had times when I’ve pressured and demanded parts to “tell me what’s happening”. Everyone’s backs came up and wouldn’t say a thing understandably. I reminded them of perpetrators. But if allow I them to tell me at their and my own pace then answers came forth just like human people do.

 Deprogramming for Different Situations
As said, deprogramming has different strategies for different situations. Generally it is within Short Term Crises and Long Term Deprogramming. What is general and common to victims/survivors is that deprogramming happens as either a reaction to crisis periods or within an overall deprogramming. Coping is putting it at bay or aside. This particularly happens during crisis times like call backs. During the rest of the year it is also important as there is a need and want to have a normal everyday life free from programming. If in a crisis please the Guidelines webpage. An important consideration here is to live your life in your current age. Do not be tempted to go back to the violence and torture of the cue that was long ago. Remember that the violence and lies are not happening today or now. It is merely a memory and back in 1962 or 1983, etc. It is 2015 now.

Stopping Programming for Being Accessed and Deployed
A crisis period can happen when there is a fear of being accessed. Trust your intuition and panic around this as in most cases it does involve accessing. Lots of internal understanding, and lots of talking with inner people, are extremely important. Also lots of looking at the bigger picture is necessary. For example, why am I in this place and for this long? Ordinarily I wouldn’t go to or stay here for this amount of time. This could be a sign of accessing and deployment. 
There are many ways of being aware if you are being accessed or are being sent on a “mission”.  The main one is to respectfully talk to parts or personalities. Either organise a time to have a private meeting within yourself or simply talk when needed. Let all the parts speak even if some or many are told lies. Discuss with him/her what is happening and look for the truth. You need to view this from a parental, adult or overall perpsective with a material understanding of what is happening now. For example, parts maybe scared of particular places as they remind of past abuse, so explanations are needed that correspond to the age of the part. Parts are telling the truth and this needs to be expanded upon. Ask what is happening? If parts are very emotional, especially sad, then this is a major sign that abuse is happening. You may have been accessed yesterday and the parts that were accessed are traumatised. If accessed, ask with consideration what time and where the abuse happened. Having this awareness means you can discharge the hurt and sadness and be in a better position not to be accessed again. Another way is to keep a diary of where you have been for the week, month, day, etc. Also ask understanding friends, partner or someone who would have a rough idea of your routine or activities where you were or should have been on particular days and times to see what the reality is.  Any missing times should then reveal themselves. Another is to use intuition or to act on niggling feelings.
Accessing programming is very intense as it is the one that directly controls you. If there was no accessing you would be free. When you break accessing you stop the control. Breaking accessing programming is like undoing programming generally. You look for the truth and undo the lies. Undoing accessing has much stress since the perpetrators put time constraints upon when you have to contact next whether by phone, face to face, etc. You may feel you are deprogramming against a clock and within a particular time period. It is important to not feel so stressed by getting an understanding of what the accessing is. Ie when are you going to be accessed, and where and how. This means you know what the situation is and can take stock of it and not be influenced too much by panic. Talk to parts whose role it is to be accessed. Ask them with care and genuine concern that accessing is not good and that perpetrators are actually horrible. Also use the stress itself. What days and times are you stressed, and what brings on the stress – the thought of phone contact, face to face contact, etc.
Breaking accessing can be direct in not doing the actual contact. This means a thorough understanding that the accessing was actually broken. There could be a deliberate program of fooling a part that “accessing was broken”, but in fact another part had to contact. You will know if accessing is broken by intense programming reactions before, during or soon after the time of supposed contact. When this happens, it is important to deprogram as in a stressful situation by looking after yourself and particularly the parts that had to contact. Talk with them about how the perpertrators are not helpful and that you shouldn’t have to contact anyway and within their time demands. You should be able to do what you want.
Breaking accessing can also be undoing the programming beforehand. This again means looking after parts and explaining that perpetrators are not friends or helpful, and that you can do what you want.
Stopping accessing is a major stage in stopping being a victim. Once accessing has stopped, they cannot control you anymore. They cannot tell you where to go, they cannot reprogram or torture you again, they cannot tell you how to live your life, etc.

Deprogramming and the Organisation. Reclaiming Ourselves.
Programming and deprogramming need to be put into a organisation perspective in that they are specifically about the organisation. This is its function. It relates specifically to being accessed, deployment, disclosure and continuing with truly supportive people, disrupting that support and organisation activities. The aims of the organisation are to keep you under control and working for them. You need to separate from these. THESE ORGANISATION ACTIVITIES ARE NOT THE TOTALITY OF LIFE. WE CAN USE OUR TIME TO DEPROGRAM, WORK ON OTHER MEMORIES AND HAVE A NORMAL LIFE. Survivorship basically is about stopping the control and abuse, and having a life that is our own. Even though we may not be conscious of it, our lives were controlled by perpetrators, and with recovery we find and reclaim ourselves so that we control ourselves. We find free will, we develop healthy relationships, we have a mind that is entirely our own, and we go wherever we want to and when we want to.

Deprogramming In Relation to Continuing Your Life
There are two very important aspects to deprogramming and continuing to live. The first is that SELF HARM AND SUICIDE ARE PROGRAMS. THEY ARE NOT NATURAL. DON’T BELIEVE THE PROGRAM. SUICIDAL THOUGHTS ARE CAUSED BY PROGRAMMING. IF THERE WAS NO PROGRAMMING THERE WOULD BE NO SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. The second aspect is a very useful awareness. This is to TELL THE PERSONALITY WHO IS PROGRAMMED TO SUICIDE IS THAT SHE OR HE WILL DIE TOO. EVERYONE DIES INSIDE THE BODY INCLUDING THE PERSONALITY. The personality is lied to by the perpetrators, especially the handler, that the suicidal personality will “continue to live after s/he has killed”. This is another lie. IF YOU SEE A DEAD BODY YOU KNOW THAT EVERYONE INSIDE THE BODY DIES.
A person stops deprogramming when there is no need to work on the programming. This mean s/he is not constantly affected by programming and abuse memories. S/he is not being accessed, reprogrammed and deployed. Signs that a person has deprogrammed are: not acting out greatly eg not seeing similar looking people today as being the same as the perpetrators; not seriously falling into the same patterns of abuse eg sexual compulsion; can really account for their time and so is not being accessed and deployed; is not compulsed to do things such as instantly “going on a holiday” which is a sign of deployment ie couriering information; etc. It is very important to be in touch with ones emotions and being responsible for them. If adults, it means having a normal adult life- studying, working, parenting, leisure, community pursuits, etc; Being deprogrammed means that the programming is either not there anymore or is not functioning.

Deprogramming and General Life
Deprogramming needs to be seen in relationship to life generally. You are pressured by work, studies, family, friends, relationships, shopping, etc. It is important to know when it is needed to deprogram. During stress times, coping with programming is very important and life generally needs to be well used such as being with trusted friends or telling unreliable friends that you can’t see them. Social functions need to be made less important, etc. It is important not to get triggered by similar looking organisation things/people which are not organisation, and to not go near or do things that will trigger or do harm such as tall buildings.

Have We Fully Deprogrammed Yet?
How does one know that they are deprogrammed? Not being accessed nor deployed Every every survivor I know is being accessed when having awareness and starting recovery. Survivors are lied to that they “are not being accessed” “are not dissociated” and “are escaping”. This happened to me as many handlers lied that I was “escaping”. Personalities unfortunately believed it. Perpetrators do not want to allow a victim to escape. Victims bring much money by the exploitation, the perpetrators have spent a lot of time and money in programming and deploying the victim, and the perpetrators don’t want survivors telling the truth and revealing what the perpetrators do. If we looked at the issue logically just because you are aware and getting support does not automatically mean you have escaped the organisation. It’s the same as with incest survivors. Just because they become aware of abuse doesn’t mean that the perpetrator is not there in the house, at family gatherings, etc. A Victorian study in 1996 found that most counsellors working with programmed victims/survivors believed that clients were still being accessed and abused.
There is no full proof way of knowing your whole system and understanding that you have completely deprogrammed. You can use your intuition, the knowledge that you feel really free, that there is no contact, or that perpetrators are not popping into your head, etc to get some understanding. The best way to measure this is to get a real understanding of yourself and whether you are living your life the way you want all the time. This simply means knowing yourself and whether you are truly fulfilling yourself. This means that everything you do is controlled by you and that all your decisions and actions are for your benefit only. Perpetrators sometimes will “fit in” with something you are doing to disguise their control. For example going on a holiday you have planned and getting you (an unknown loyal personality) to courier information to that place. However, if you have a true understanding of yourself, this manipulation will soon reveal itself.
Reclaiming and reassociating personalities
It is not necessary to reassociate the personality if you don’t want to. Some survivors have reclaimed their parts and system and kept them as they are with new jobs if need be, They are safe with you so that they aren’t controlled by perpetrators. They didn’t feel they needed to go back and discharge and reassociate. A survivor I know talks about her GI Joe doing this and that for the benefit of her, GI Joe and the whole system. Some survivors have wanted to not have any reminders of the abuse and have gone back to the memory and worked it through so that the part as such doesn’t have to be dissociated anymore and not have the roles and cues. Some survivors are in between – a mixture of parts, reassociated and integrated. All these parts are ok and there needs to be no criticism of anyone. All the ways are ok as long as there is no control by perpetrators.
When a person deprograms sufficiently so that they are not controlled by accessing and therefore deployed, and arent affected by programming and abuse memories, they can start to leave "the nest" of survivorship and have an independent life. Signs that a person has deprogrammed are: not acting out greatly eg not seeing similar looking people today as being the same as the perpetrators, and not seriously falling into the same patterns of abuse eg sexual compulsion; being real and in touch with ones own emotions and being responsible for them; if adults, having a functional adult life- studying, working, parenting, leisure, community pursuits, etc. One can never be perfect. The effects of abuse particularly from perpetrator abuse can be long term and fundamental. The important aspect is that the person now has a fully functional life, with the emphasis on life.

Views and Webpages on Deprogramming
Views on Deprogramming
This is from a well known and remarkable survivor Carol Rutz. She has written extensively about GOCMP and has given papers at a university and conferences on GOCMP. Her groundbreaking book A Nation Betrayed (http://www2.dmci.net/users/casey) is well read within the survivor and therapist community. This is from a speech she gave at the SMART (Stop Mind Control and Ritual Abuse Today) Conference in 2003. http://ritualabuse.us/smart-conference/conf03/healing-from-ritual-abuse-and-mind-control/ “I don’t believe there is only one way to deprogram. There is no right or wrong way. What is effective for one may be totally unworkable for someone else. I believe the key to deprogramming is Internal dialogue.”Internal dialogue is talking with personalities about how to deprogram, what is causing a current crisis, if and when accessing occurs, what is stopping them from telling you the truth, what needs to be deprogrammed and how to go about doing it, etc. As Carol says it is extremely important. It is like talking with a community in order to understand a community’s problem.
Webpages about Deprogramming
Another example is this webpage is from a survivor who makes online collages to remember what the programming is more clearly and then undo it. We are forced not to use the usual ways of remembering and noting what happened such as writing with our normal hand. But there are other ways we can use such as singing songs that remind us of the programming information and writing with our non dominant hand. In this webpage Grace makes collages online to indirectly, but still successfully, remind her of the programmers, the style of programming, what its intentions are, etc. It is very ingenious. http://graceartjourney.blogspot.com/

Deprogramming Summary
Always look for why you are deprogramming. It could be due to panic and anxiety over disclosing, escaping, stopping accessing, stopping callbacks for ceremonies, etc. Understanding the reasons for deprogramming anxiety gives a better perspective and helps slows things down. It also helps you to understand if you’re currently being accessed, reprogrammed, etc.
Never trust a programmer/organisation. They/he/she is/are always trying to deceive you for their selfishness. They only want you to be bound to them. They never ever “help you”. It is always for the organisation. They are selfish and manipulative in wanting you to do their criminal activities. To them you are merely a robot that makes them money. They find an organisation such as a government espionage agency or a perpetrator within their own organisation which wants something illegally done, and then sells you like a slave to them in order to do their dirty work and make heaps of illegal money for the handler and the perpetrators.  They may sound “sweet” and “empathetic” but in reality they are all abusing you.
No-one will die. I have known over two hundred survivors, and they and their loved ones have never died. There are pragmatic reasons for this in that the organisations won’t kill off someone whom they can abuse which would normally includes your family. Also the murder of someone is taken very seriously by law enforcement, and all information regarding the murder of someone, including from us, is thoroughly investigated. The only thing assisting the perpetrators at the moment is their invisibility, and if that is blown in the investigation of a murder, then this last feature will be eradicated. It was the same with the mafia and organised pedophilia. When murders such as that of drugs campaigner Donald Mackay happened in Griffith, the lid was blown on organised drug crime in Australia. This is the same as with abuse. Murders are very very serious crime and investigators will research for decades unlocking all the information. The perpetrators don’t want this visibility and awareness and will not commit such.
The Memories are old. They are also manipulated memories which intend to deceive you. The organisation and handler never helped you with the programming. They staged it so that they always come out “the winner” regardless of what really is the truth. They are trying to make out that they are “helpful”. By saying that “you must die” is not helpful. There was never a “saviour”. They were all in this together and they all knew about the violence.
You have the right to live where you want and do what you want.
If you have innocent family and friends being non consciously abused by the organisation. They are told lies about you and you do not need to listen to the lies which are really from the organisation. The innocent family and friends are only repeating what they have been lied about. The innocent friends and family are not horrible people. You do not have to accept what innocent friends and family are told.
Be eclectic. Use all techniques and the appropriate ones. Depending on what your needs are- crisis, wanting to work on deep programming, wanting to remain calm, etc - use the technique/s that corresponds to your needs and wants.

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